AsAP~

✅ Set off to KBR within these 2 days😚

✅ Tix confirmed

✅ Happy 🤗

✅ HUSM❤️

✅ WFH❤️

✅ HBL❤️

✅ Get treated😅

✅ Complete the treatment😬

✅ Get more rest😣

✅ Blueprint teacher☺️

✅ Not looking for love nor relationship nor rebound👎

✅ Get everything done ASAP😎

✅ Will our society changed?🥱

✅ Never ever mentioned about marriage💔

✅ It's hurts to the core when people asked about it💔

✅ Respect others feelings👍

✅ If i had a choice i never chose to be alone💔

✅ It's because i don't have any option left🥺

✅ Please be more understanding😐

✅ Create another blog, dismissed this blog?😞,

✅ What's next?🤔

GoSh~

 Repost IFB:"I'm having lunch with my family at one of the famous hotel among the airlines crew, there were  2 girls tap my shoulder and addressed me as Felicia cz they mistook of me🤣They thought I'm one of their long lost good friend. Their Felicia was a Kadazan Dusun girl😅 Actually there were a lots of people mistook about me especially my race 😅 I'm often mistook as one of the Bornean girl😅Hmmm it's okay then I'm fine with it anyways🤭My dad told me yesterday that he would like to presents me the brand new X70 Proton and iPhone. But since I'm not the iPhone users and I'm not driving, i declined it eventually. IKR his main purpose🤭🤣I knew he's worried about my safety and they tried to encouraged me, i really appreciated that💓💞 Don't worry  guys,I'm good🤗❤️Actually thats for  my 1st year successful completed treatment for my high function depression and there were another year to go but it's gonna be not frequent TCA💘✅"

I'm smiling and IKR you are smiling too🤗



I don't care how bad my hijab will looks as long as i can easily eat and munch🤪I don't care how others will look at me cz I'm just care for my food🤗Food is my real happiness instead of their thoughts ✅❤️😚Abah told us if we've been hurts ,we have 3  options in life it's either we hurts them back,love them or avoid them) What you guys will choose?I had my answer and i wanna know yours🤗 cz i chose to forgive and walk away


P/S : Too many oder for homeschooling materials and perfume❤️Can you help me?🤗

QuAraNtiNe PaRtY~

 Thanks for those who attended to my very"quarantine meet and greet event"🤣Yup,it's indeed limited and fully SOP required. Not many pics to share as I'm quite busy but I'm glad it's was very successful😊

Event :  Quarantine Party👻😷

Date  : 19th December 2020 ( Sat)

Dress code :  Shades of Red❤️ & White🤍 

Venue : Not in the palace🤣

Among the one who never leaves me💞

Black and yellow (favorite colors) balloons along the way from first to the third floor❤️


Actually i never wear that hijab for a years😁and I'm forgot how to "donning" with it.So,as a result..since i didn't brought any extra brooch and pins I'm just "fits in accordingly" without any brooch and pins🤪It's like I'm wearing a "tudung sekolah" and I'm just fold every edge to make it tight 🤣Tadaaaa please give a big hand to my round face🤣yet it's looks still cute though 😚But hey,I'm slim enough (56kg/160cm) but i owned a baby fat cheeks😚😚😚😚😚😚😚😚😚😚😚

CoNgRaTs~

 

Congrats cousin❤️

Actually that was his dream since young to have his own bussiness 🤭This very likeable Muar's MP was my cousin.We received some pictures of him through our family WhatsApp group🤪and to be exact he really did post the same pic🤣among of my Singaporean cousins (do you know that he was a half Singaporean like me😚??) His mom was a Johorean and his dad was Singaporean.Among my Singaporean cousins, just a few of them who really can take the spicy food and mostly their favorite was any kind of sambal❤️Fun fact about him, he changed his personal number multiple times but will only used the same phone number for his work🤣We are just hoping for the best for his mom (Umi Hani) and to his dad (Ami Aman) please stay strong👍❤️May Umi Hani able to pull through and fight her breast cancer.I remembered  once i went to his house during Eid, his family were not there as they went to abroad cz umi Hani pursued her study in UK. His maid and his grandparents were at home cz usually they will overnight in Johore Bahru during weekends.During Maghrib, i played hide and seek with a few cousins upstairs.While all of the adults are praying, we are playing🤣but when I'm walking downwards to the stairs i saw a "tall lady" in the middle of the staircase, facing to them who are still praying.TBH i don't feel scared cz I'm still a little girl that time and yeah SS haven't born yet🤣When one of my elder cousin shout "hantu!!!" and she was screaming, i noticed that "tall lady" vanished. As you guys can guessed the figure that i saw seems to be a "cik Ponti" 👻But you know what? We get a scolded instead cz they said we are still playing even it's already dark 🤪

Ada org bilang cute seh🤣

ImProMpTu~

Please excuse for my "lifted" hijab

Actually that shirt was meant for my brother and i picked an XL size for him since he is quite tall and had a buff body.I ordered it from Captain Adi and asked him to delivered it to my brother's house.But it's doesn't fits him at all and he said it's quite tight for him🤣He wanna gave to his wife but my sister-in-law doesn't like black in colour.So at the end he delivered it back to me and wanna let me have the refund but i declined 🤗.So, i put it on and i think it's fits me well even it's  oversize🤣I'm wearing M instead of XL but yes of course i prefer a loose shirt instead❤️So, do you think it's fits me well?? 🤭Well, I'm quite sad cz i can't travel myself to the land of hornbill to meet my "children" due to my tight schedules💔But it's okay kids, ibu's friend gonna take care of it, she will pass it to you since she's going back to her hometown❤️You guys gonna be surprised with the variety of Gardenia's bread and muffins ❤️I can't be there for you but all of you will always in ibu's heart❤️Will meet you again sayang-sayang ibu🤗❤️Take care of yourself, have a good rest and xoxo from here❤️😚

If you guys are interested in this shirt,you may reach him at🤗 :

Facebook : Abang Captain

Instagram : @abangcaptain

"Doaku setiap hari semoga setiap kesakitan dan langkah perjalananku adalah syahid dan rezeki walaupun setiap langkahku itu amat menyakitkan"-ZK

" Sekiranya aibku terhidu..Aku mengaku AKU ADALAH PENDOSA dan TIDAK SEMPURNA ☹️,beri aku sedikit ruang dan tolong hormati aku........... "-ZK

 

GiFt WiTh LoVe~

 Repost IAAL : "As you know I  had 3 brothers and  only 2 of them were really a game maniac!So as i did "wrote" on my previous blog,they asked for a PS5,and tadaaaaa they will received it soon!!"

✅ PS5

✅ Gift

✅ ❤️siblings

✅ 🤷 Is it fun?

✅ I never into any kind of games🙅

✅ I don't think i'm wasting my money

✅ This is investment 🤪

NeXt SteP~

White "bracelet"🙄~

 Repost BSMB :Since we are allowed to "explore" again🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪hmm where i shoud go after get my Covid test result??IF I'm negative🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔and there are a few places running in my mind 🧐🧐🧐🧐🧐🧐🧐. Hopefully it's just a cold😊

✅ 🦗

✅ 🐈

✅ ❤️

✅ 💔

✅✈️

✅📸

✅💊

✅🍞

Some people asked me why i loved blogging😊Actually that was a therapy for us as a patient need to "completed".Actually we have to do it everyday.It can be done in either way though (record it, write in a diary, make it as a journal and so on).Now you aware isn't? depression wasn't a tiny matter that should be ignored 😊.RN I'm going an end to end therapy of high function depression. You know what is that??? Chek it yourself 😊

Ex NiHiLo~

She can be the amateur photographer😆

 

          Still calm during taking a pic🤗

 Last Sun,I and my team had to travel to Malacca from my  favorite city not only to met my family members(which is I'm accidentally bought some "jeweleries for my mom as requested by her due to its "hot price" she said "adik,emas tgh murah ni..jom😂") but it's based  on charity and bussiness purposes.I had to hand over thousands over bottles of perfumes for all the agents who ran out of  their stocks and a few sets of homeschooling materials (ofcourse i had the letter of permission from the authority since we are from red zone area).I'm glad because all of my agents and customers agreed to meet me at Mahkota Parade.Its unlike the usual scenery Malacca on weekends that we used to know,it's kind of quiet and dull due to pandamic deep impact to our tourism.I really hope everything will gonna

Retro😚

I'm already exhausted 🤣

be end very soon and everything will get back on their tracks and feets.I do pity for those who gravely effected by this current situation.I don't wished to witnessed the increasing of mental health issue, domestic violence and separation. Last night i received a call from the person in charge of orphanage and they said the kids missed me😚awww so sweet, when everything is over i promised that I'll meet you soon little angles❤️But second of thought,do they really missed me or missed my rewards that i used to gave?? 😊Well as you know (maybe some of you never know about this)in Borneo (I'm not sure in Sabah,sorry🤪)you wont find any Gardenia products especially those bread that we used to eat in peninsular.(TBH I'm not really eating bread or pastries cz i can't tolerate with yeast)I'm only have it if I'm really craving for it or else i won't dare to dig my own grave🤪So, the rewards that i mentioned earlier was those bread especially the chocolate and vanilla flavor😊❤️As for now they have to hold their craving for those breads.Previously I'll bought a lots of bread when i pay them a visit,I'm not supplying the bread🤗it's meant for share❤️And usually i will bought various flavours for the kids and teachers. As for now it's really not suitable for me to post to them due to the expiry date, it's take about a week to reach their place though.  Actually previously i did "sent by hand" those bread whenever I'm there and usually the order came from my friends. I was mistook once by someone who i really care the most by saying that "I'm not supplying the bread but I'm  supplying my body and pu**y instead cz i seems like to had a random s*x "It's literally hurts and i really lost my words.Thus,my trust is began to fade away.I'm very disappointed for the thought you had on me.Sometimes people will make a wild assumptions based on their personal experience.So,you aware now?? I'm not that cheap as you think.And this very "cheap lady" who saved your butt and throat,that you are indebted to her for the rest of your life✅ I want nothing,I'm just hoping that I'm not gonna be cruel to others and  destroyed  one's life and trust as you did. Even I'm  stepping ahead by myself,I'm still moving forward and there's nothin' can hold and lean me back😉And I will continue everything as usual accordingly as a teacher,author, entrepreneur,model,coach, daughter,sister,aunt and His Slave without you independently,do not worry,I'm okay❤️😉 🤗Thank you,you are the best thing i ever had in my life✅😁

SoRRy AnD ThAnk YoU~

 I just did it even IKR it won't be accepted

Repost IABE : Last night i get a phone call from my grab driver who drove me to the airport before I left my former favorite city to be in my homeland.He was the one who I asked to do me a favour..to pass or just put the card in the letter box (if available) by the given address as me myself never went to her house.I just said "Uncle,can you please send this card to my godmom,I can't gave her in person cz we didn't talk anymore.I have to fabricated the story obviously😊The content more and less as below (actually we communicate in Mandarin)and these are the translation:

He : Miss,your mom received your card?

Me : I'm not pretty sure.Why?

He : I can't find the exact house,it's too complicated.All seems detached

Me : I'm sorry

He : You doesn't want to call her?

Me : It's not a good idea,i don't wish  to upset her

He : I'm scared if i put in a wrong letter box

Me : It's okay,if meant for her will always hers.Thanks for your help

He : I hope things gets better between both of you

Me : I already said sorry and thanked her in the card

He : Hopefully she will read it,you are such a good daughter

Me : Nope cz i hurts her feelings

He : You want me to check again with your mom?

Me : No need and please dont...i will call her myself (I lied again)

He : I can't promise cz i do feel bad

Me : 🙄it's really fine,it's okay.I will asked her,don't worry (TBH i don't have her contact at all)

He : Okay miss

I'm matured enough

Before i hand in to him for her😊

😊❤️😊

CoNdOLenCeS~

 Faris was my photographer and a good friend of mine😊We met in one modelling event in 2018 and he gave his bussiness card to me and i lost it since i misplaced it.Then we "met" again in Facebook and Instagram.We share the same interest about fashion,arts and bussiness even we are from different background (he is an architect while I'm a teacher)but we have the mutual hobby which is feeding the stray cats🤪When i get the notification from him saying that his brother was passed away,i knew Faris was strong enough to pull through even i saw he was in tears.I know it's hurts cz Faris were close to his brother,his brother will always be his "personal pilot" when he wanna checked on his project and he shared a lots in his YouTube channel☹️ .I would like to express my deepest condolences on the passing of Faris's brother in a helicopter crash this morning.May your brother (the late of abg Sabri Baharom and his trainee abg Irfan )will rest in peace.May Jannah will be the best place for  them to have their long rest.Losing someone we loves was extremely hurts but whatever it is we still have to let it go and stay strong bro!!.....Faris...our team will always behind you!!We are team and we are family!!Al-Fatihah......

Al-Fatihah☹️

P/S : Sorry for those who haven't get a reply from me but trust me i did read one by one ❤️I'll reply it sooner or later cz RN I'm too busy with my business,I'm not in my pink of health,online teaching and so on..which is keeps me busy.And i had a lots of things to share with you guys❤️I'm sorry if I'm hardly seen here ( i did monitor everyday🤣) but I'm super active in my committee blog cz i had a lots of idea to share with other users.I'll never stop blogging cz i get a very handsome pay for that😚Thus,i never had a chance to enjoy the benefits from government as they offered to other Malaysian🙄Bussiness as a back up and I'll never give up my teaching and my job as an author!!😘Will catch you soon❤️Take care,have a good rest,stay safe and be at home as much as possible.Bye guys❤️

Be strong Faris!

My BaBieS~

Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to you, 

Happy birthday to mama,

Happy birthday to you❤️

Happy birthday or happy belated birthday mama!!!May you have a blast and blessed birthday ❤️😘.Well she's not my mom neither auntie or so on but she's a mom of my friend that i used to close before.Maybe the relationship are sour between us but i won't dragged their family into the matter🤗.I'm thinking of wanna send her a perfume from our company but i doesn't know what kind of smell she loves or is it she loves perfume as i do?or what kind of handbag's brand she loves🙄???IDK hmm. Welll,some people might get allergy with perfume.For what i can do is just sent her a birthday card same as i did to my mom,but i don't know wether she received it on time or not or wether she's okay with that or not,well i meant no harm. We  never talked each other and had conversation before, thus i don't know much about her.How i knew her birthday?? actually there were a story behind that🤗Last year September i was in my favorite city,seeking for my treatment and wanna visited one of my photographer's mom.Then i seems saw my friend's dad and brother,cz i recognized my friend's brother's face but......my friend seems  nowhere seen TBH I'm not looking for them tho Well, if they saw me it's was fine anyways cz i put on surgical mask🤪,same as when I'm going for travel by flight.. mostly i will put on surgical mask cz i knew my lungs condition very well.I'd been there for a few days and i went every floor (my bad!since idk which floor they are) I'm not strong enough to visit her (even i wanna do it so much) but i knew my presence are not  welcomed because of the incident and i doesn't want to worsened the condition.I'm quite lucky enough cz my neighbor's daughter (a nurse) worked in that hospital too so,as avoid the suspicious i didn't asked much cz patient particular are P&C and i  just asked when is her birthday (like i wanna know the date and month😊)and that's it,i'm just asked that and i did asked her to update me her progress.She asked me "who is that lady to you?"I'm just said a mom of good friend of mine,but we never talked anymore and I'm awkward to visited her cz she might knew my name but not myself personally😊.So,that was the story.Well back to my bussiness that i ran with my share partners,as i said I'm not the major owner but yes,i invested in the field that i loves most(teaching,fashion and perfumes)❤️.I started as an ordinary teacher in aculand before became a shareholder (now I'm teaching in another school but I'm still in related with aculand's projects same goes to Fabulous Perfume..i started as a regular customer before i decided to invest cz this is a best inspired perfume that i ever "met".Well,you have to trust me when comes to to a perfume! Aculand established since 16 years ago and aculand education hub established in 2018,while as i mentioned before in my previous post, Fabulous Perfume just established in 2019.But tell you what since we love fashion and food we also produced a lipmate,cookies, clothings and now in the making of beauty products 😊both bussiness keeps me travelling and my time are quite limited.

"I let you to be in my life because i squeezed my time for you to be in my loop,not leisurely let you be in my life anytime you wished"-Me

Fruits of joy❤️

PaSsiON~

 Have you heard about "be what you wanna be and not to be the one who people wanna see".It's a huge turn off for me though if there's someone asked me to transform myself to be someone they adore.Well, fucking hell with that yo!!!🤗You should scram from my sight!I rules on my own rules and you are just NOBODY!Do you love to stay in the environment of  you surrounded by toxic and possessive people??Nah,it's not me😊 Another huge turn off for me when someone kept on asking a videocall, phone call and selfie.WTH!!🤪Well,IKR I'm beautiful,friendly and attractive but I'm just hate it AF plus i will never asked a videocall or personal picture from others though 😂Like...for what???i still remember how you looks alike anyways😂😂😂 There's a umpteenth times i slash "them" with my "killing words" and I will said "I'M TAKEN 😚"When I'm taken I'll admit I'm taken and when I'm single I will still said I'M TAKEN too😂😂😂so, literally I'M TAKEN!!There's a guy who really "burnt"his butt literally because of my word and I'm so sorry for that 🤪He upset with me because I'm not entertained him, replying his text and he said I seems not interested in him(which is obviously yeah..i don't 😂) BTW he get my number from one of my friend and he is Capt M.K from KUL.I doesn't know him that much and why i need to reply kind of flirty and dirty conversation?? Regardless who he is,I'm fair enough.He's angry when he didn't get my selfie pic,late reply and videocall,he started to "raise up" his voice towards me and i was like wow "who are you to me????"🤔You know how i end the conversation??since I'm already deleted his num and chat😂

Capt MK : No one can do this to me!

Me : I'll be the one and I'm already unfollow you.Actually I'm already deleted your contact number.Thanks!

As i said i just do what i love to do for example in teaching wise and perfume since I'm a perfume enthusiast😚So,that i invested in it❤️But in a perfume bussiness I'm just a co-founder and i didn't invest more on it,thus i don't appear much in their social media but i'll be the one who will correct their pronunciation when comes to each brand cz i learned it from a professional modelling class that i attend before😂😂😂😂Uncle T said to me my company logo is similar to his company logo,it's recently isn't??My edu hub established since 2018 while our perfume  just established in 2019❤️

Language and cognitive materials plus parents workshop❤️I owned the original perfumes too😚 and i can tell what smell you put on!cz I'm a blueprint perfume enthusiast ❤️

BiT oF WoRdS~

 Dear All,

Whenever you find a person infected with Covid 19 in your neighborhood or near your workplace, being taken to quarantine/isolation center in an ambulance, please do not take video or pictures, in fact discourage the person who you find is making a video or taking photos. Don’t embarrass the person. Instead stand in your balcony or at your window or your gate a few feet away and give him/her a thumbs up, wish him/her good luck and a speedy recovery.

Because the way the virus is spreading, soon you will find a ambulance, in front of everybody’s gate / door. Please understand how this person must be going through.

Please :

1. Respect him/her

2. Pray for him/her

3. Make him/her feel you are a good human being

4. Do not spread panic and “fear of insult” among others.

The person is just unwell, not a criminal. He/She will get cured but the memory of how people treated him, will stay with him forever!!

We are all in this fight together!!

Let's spread love and build confidence

Be Safe, Stay at Home.....

 Take care everyone....❤️❤️

P/S : In additional,it's same goes to those people who lost their job during pandemic outbreak.Respect them,this is not their choice but they are the choosen one to leave the company.We have no right make fun of them!

DeLiGhTeD~

 Hello guys😉 regarding to the article that  been posted in the committee blog,thats meant to be in general speaking and i didn't mentioned anyone in specific😉.Whatever i post in the committee blog it will be the same as what i post in my WhatsApp story, supposedly  no issue of hurts feeling and i meant no harm🤗To those who might felt "shit,it's really hits me"oopsie,i'm really sorry🤪.Well i do hope all  of you,take care of yourself and family members due to the risen of the cases of Covid-19.When it's happened again it will caused a grave damaged to thousands lives or even worsen.Some of them might lose their job,source of income and hope of living.Trust me,it's a hell true.Maybe the sector that won't affected at all like education, government servant and those essential industry won't feel the "real struggle" unlike to those who work in private sectors,airlines,tourism, manufacturing or any other bussiness...it will affected them a lots!Yes,it's true..they are the one who will get suffer,not us!!!but,JUST SPARE THOUGHT FOR OTHERS!I don't understand why some of us never take this pendemic issue was something serious that should to be NOTED! This situation will made you proud of yourselves???being ignorant??as long as your butt is not burn???never think about others??Sadly,it's happened...🤐If you never think about yourself,please think about others😑I might be one of the among lucky person who never went through and met the "real struggle" due to pandemic issue as we still get our full salary and I'm still able to paid my staff cz we as a teachers able to WORK FROM HOME and of course i did a few job too😛.But i felt upset though to those who eager wants to "work from home again"😑Bullshit!!!!Have you think about others!!!?????So, please..if you feel unwell,please give a check and if there are nothing urgent or important for you to step out from the house,just STAY INDOOR,BE AT HOME!To those who really need a financial support due to medical issue please let me know☹️Please stay safe everyone❤️Have a good rest❤️Take care❤️I love you❤️I had a zoom  meeting earlier with my Borneo educational staff and they seems worried if there were any second lock down as they are just "work" with me.They  lost their job during MCO period few months ago.All i can said,I'm really proud of my  team and i really appreciated their efforts to be part of my team❤️We just discussed about what else we can run besides of homeschooling materials.So,i threw some ideas to them🤗

These are examples what i prepared for my nephew ❤️😉 sushi,fried rice, noodles,rice,porridge and burger.Each meal came with a bottle of Yakult and a cutting of fresh fruits.Looks yummy right??Yes it is❤️

 All about healthy meal including bento  that they can prepared or sell to the kids (sell to the parents of course 🤪), thinking about having a childcare and stuff like that.Again,I'm only throwing ideas and it's up to them how they wanna managed it.And i won't take any single profits from them.All belong to them🤗

This pic was taken by my manager before the shoot for the nail polisher💅this makeup too much collagen i guessed.Its made my face and lips really stiff😆

Proudly present you my Borneo educational team.When we are having a discussion one of the girl mentioned about buah dabai☹️hmmm again missed it for this year and counting 🤐Sorry needs to sensored my face cz I'm free hair🤗

DeStruCtiOn~

 

Once,within me there were full of  infected wounded till there's no more space for another cut.And i never hope for another cut now🤗

Livin' in a hectic weeks,one after another really made me worn out.In additional,there's really a thing that triggered my "inner health" especially about that incident..yup..because of that trivia matter (it's seems small matter for you but really a grave matter to me)I'm started to breakin',loosing my interest in doin' things i loved, anxiety,slept for the whole day cz i felt totally flat ,loosing my appetite,eating disorder occured,not interested in having more conversations (but I'm still going for work),at times either i had a nightmare or insomnia.My mind already exhausted and yeah I'm literally tired.Its not about work but it's about others perception and on how people's impression towards me.I'm not saying that I'm paranoid but as my psychologist said the trauma still grew in me.But i will not let this happened to me as i already chose to love myself again❤️ and I'm not gonna let anythin' hurts me even i know the damaged can't be repaired but I'll give it a shot.I'm very sorry for those who can't reached me these few days as i put my phone on silent.Only my work phone in used and to Uncle T,I'm already rename your "name"😁

The loss within damn hell 3 months of destruction.My total lost was a TRUST and people JUDGEMENTAL till these day.How you  gonna FIX IT?You can't!😎

For those who requested for this quote,come..take it❄️I'm not so in love with lovey dovey stuff but i can share with you a quotes😉

The one who never failed to cx on me,TQ Uncle❤️

ReNaMe~

Did i missed anything🤔?What's event on 8th?I didn't scroll much in Facebook nor Instagram 🙄

Few hours passed when he tried to reached me out,sorry Uncle T🤭

As he requested to "sensored" his new name if i did post the screenshot 😂 I didn't stick with my phone if I'm doing my work but once it's with me I'll reply immediately 🤭

Today i felt quite funny and laughed AF upon the text came from Uncle T.He did mentioned about why I'd saved his contact as my own name ( now i knew that he is particular about contacts🤪) for me personally,i had no issue with that at all since that was my phone anyways and i have right to save whatsoever name it is as i wished.🤣And first of for most my thought was "who else will read my blogs except my own loyal readers"which is eventually i never knew that Uncle T will read my blog as well🤣 I just don't wanna any suspicious grew on my parents'mind (maybe they will though my BF,cz frequently gave me a call and i doesn't want my parents knew what is the heck actual had happened) Luckily i never speaking ill about Uncle T in my blog,or else I'm gonna be a dead meat😅except the truth infact on every single ."story",regardless it's mine or i bought from others.He just wondering why recently i did attached a picture together with the event occured.Well,it's kind of a picture story 🤗 compared to my previous blogs,it's all about "living stories"❤️Well guys I'm not in my homeland since Saturday🤗 cz i'm still working on my teaching hours on my another favorite city😉 (currently my based)which is previously i need to completed my teaching hours in one private school in my former favorite city eventually,but things happened not as per plan and yeah I'm still moving forward though.Luckily in this city my tagging had a few hours break so,i can catch up with my own school back in my homeland🤗 Overall,all i need to do is manage my time wisely cz I'm very particular about time management.So as suggested by Uncle T,i did met the lawyer yesterday and I'll see how it goes(He was truly speechless 🤐when  I said I had a psychiatric record due to depression, anxiety and PTSD..) since my former lawyer Dorris aka Ms Chua (Uncle T's best friend's daughter) no longer handling my case.I knew she is dissapointed and upset with me and yeah i knew the feeling.All i can said "I LET YOU DOWN and I'M VERY SORRY..i knew i didn't heed her advise at at first place thus there is no turning back for me,but trust me i do have my own reason to do so......

Me : How about if others said I'm insane?

Mr G : Never mind,let it be

My manager : Why?

Mr G : Others maybe said she is insane right?

Me : Yeah

Mr G : But they forgot something,her lawyer is not insane😎

My manager : Yeah🤭

*Suddenly heard a thugs' s life soundtrack*

I'm packing up my stuff and will returned back to my homeland on Thursday🤗❤️The coverage was not too good so,i couldn't upload more pics🙄

I went back to my studio apartment quite late cz I'm late for my psychologist appointment.There was a security guard inside the lift as i went inside,I'm literally tired.I'm not pretty sure what nationality he is,i seems can guessed it right given by his English conversation 🤪

Him : Where floor ma'am?

Me : 32

Him : You stay alone?

Me : Mhmm

Him : From where?

Me : Clinic

Him : I go to 32 floor also,datuk ask me to see

Me: I see

Him : Maam,all stay in 32 floor is datuk-datuk one

Me : I see (to my understanding he meant all the units belongs to that particular Datuk

Him : Who datuk support you?

Me : SORRY!!??

Him : You are so beautiful ma'am,who datuk with you,ayoo he sure happy one (cunning smile)

Me : *Killing stare and looked at his name tag*

Him : Already here,come together and he tried to hold my hand

Me : No,thanks.I need to go downstairs again!

( I straight away go to my agent's office cz i rent under them.I lodge  a complaint about him of being rude.A while later my agent asked him to go to the office and apologize to me and I'm straight away request to changed from tower A to tower B).Of course I'm scared AF,i call my manager to come and help me to packed my things cz I'm afraid he might followed me.I did cried AF as well as i called my parents and my sister.So ladies,to be someone who afford to have everything you don't have to be "kept"by a big shot guy,just remembered "there's no free lunch in this world".All you need to do is work hard and earned!!

 

Before i met that chap,I'm waiting for the lift🙄luckily i wore just a flat shoes..if i put on my high heels i swear I'll step on his foot and kicked his "ball"😡

A typical blueprint teacher❤️

Mi Casa❤️Sejadah left in previous unit,so I'm just used the towel as sejadah.Oh my D.I.Y idea🤪

ThiNk aNd ThiNg~

I wrote about this and i did this long ago☑️

 Few days ago i went for shops some groceries and mirror.And i found such a beautiful quotes on it.Maybe you can't read it clearly but i did read it through ❤️

I chose to love myself again❤️

I get a tones of questions asking me about  the differences between the feeling of hatred and dissapointed at someone.Its simple,let's us put it this way😊To my personal view,when you hates someone of course you will do stalking on them,no matter from what medium it is.It can be by social media, telecommunication or asking someone else about that particular person indirectly in order to know how they are doing...did i hits the nail???🤣😈For  genuine toxic people of course they don't wanna hear anything good or best about you as they wanna witnessed your downfall before their eyes.And they will repeatedly mentioned about you in social media  and they will hardly trying to show off as well.Its really pathetic isn't?😊Well,as for feeling dissapointed is truly opposite from that.Meaning to say for what i had done,i'm just deleted that particular person phone number and who ever related with that person instead of blocking them.You know why??it's is because once you blocked someone you still can see their "face" from your blocked contact list🤭To me for a total cut off we might just have it deleted since " no more contact " was that person's request anyways 😊And yeah for sure i never stalked on them either and i swear i never did that,but still hoping for the best in their life without my presence.That was how i protect myself and  the ❤️ that  i care from getting hurts,yeah it's still hurts tho..but it's okay time will heal🤗

TiNy BLAcK DoT~

What a hectic day!I'm sorry for those who can't reached me out by a phone call cz i'm really busy.I'll try to returned your call ASAP🤭 Actually I'm more prefer if you guys drop me an email or text (i'm able to explain more in details with certain references)instead of a phone call (cz i received a tones of calls everyday 🤣 and ran out of my batt most of the time)BTW,I'm happy to hear from you guys and I'm pleased to assist you❤️ Yesterday i get a text which is i'm quite clueless🥴

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I would like to show you guys something on my perception on others and how i look through it intensively.

What you can see from this pic?

Well,I know most of you will said "a tiny black dot" Do i hits the nail??😉Do you understand what i'm trying to say?Let me get you a clear picture of it❤️I posted a pic of a large white surface with a tiny black dot there.And most of us will pin pointed to that very tiny black dot instead of a large space of white within it.You know why??thats how we labeled the specific person.The black dot represents his/her mistake and flaws while the white surface represents on how much he/she already did for us🤗This can be apply to everything and everyone.So,your perception on others will changed❤️No matter how hurts you are or how much hatred you had for that person,just remembered..he/she also did a lots for us too,so please disregard his/her flaws or mistake❤️❤️

P/S : I don't hates you cz you used to be my source of happiness but i'm just literally dissapointed with your attitude

LiTtLe PaRcEL~

Repost BWAB : "Exclusively brought to you for what i had done from this very alien city before off to another favorite city,met my lawyer and our legal advisor.Spot the difference between lawyer and legal advisor,can you?😉I'm not someone who very new to this alien city but just recently exposed to the beautiful of the nature within the city.Its amazed me and the excitement has just begun.Oh ya,BTW...i think it's not necessary to tell more about SAH (stay at home) periode cz there's nothing to share at all🤪For those whose interested in homeschooling materials (I'm not selling cz it's exclusively for private and individual learning) or anything regarding to a child behavior or education, don't be hesitate to approach me❤️i would love to assist"

My daily meals🥴 Diet??Naah🤪

I'm my own sunrise,sunset,rainbow&universe

Benefits of  the wide shawl,can be a purdah too🤣

While waitin' for the departure 🤗

Every child deserved a better education&teacher❤️

WoRkCiTy~

Repost FYBB:Sometimes plan are just meant to be planned.As a current moment in the middle of pandemic outbreak,i never planned to be in my long lost favorite city (I do missed everything that i had done before)  i have  to be here for the sake of my educational team and i had a dateline to catch,OMG🤪As we know not everything  just can be done by "online" but on a certain case,it has to be done by "hands on"and "to be in the field" especially everything that related to a practice life and sensory. Furthermore i have to do the inspection and the audit as well.Gonna be tired and busy AF cz needs to hold multiple task at one go🥴cz agaaaaaaaain i I have to "monitor "my school from my fingertips 😴I'm glad cz there's nothing serious that holds my steps plus I'm really count myself lucky as my former unit was still vacant as the new tenant will move in next month(Thank you Mr Andy!!)So,i can be in the same unit again❤️but you guys just able to see the basic of my unit as all the goods are already been sent away🤣I ran to my neighbour earlier and she can't recognized me at all as she said I'm totally looks different🧐She said i looks very fair, thin, and jovial.And I'm just pulling her leg by told her that I'm "bleaching" my skin and when she asked where all my tummy and fats went to??i said they are already R.I.P,both of us laughed AF🤣She loves my new hair which is  dark and light brown blonde in colour,she said suites me very well .I wanna see who dare to used my pic again😑(BTW I'm just did a hair rebonding, cutting a bit of it and i noticed the colour suites me very much ❤️,it's still henna based anyways)😉When her husband said why i looks so radiant and more cheerful (they knew my depression moment 🤭 but doesn't knew the main caused of my state) he said is that they will get a good news from me in terms of marriage 🥴i said it's good to be true but sadly it's wasn't and I'm apparently single in this world but my name already taken in the other world🤭You know what he said??It's really unbelievable for a  fine, independent and beautiful  lady like me is single and been dumped🤣I said when people asked me about my status I'll said I'M TAKEN...and yess i did it for real🤭When I'm taken I'll said I'M TAKEN and when I'm single I'm still said I'M TAKEN🤣🤗Dumped or kept  is actually on his choice even he did said to me give him some time to fixed the things he fucked and won't leave me  still its doesn't give me a feeling of secured and guarantee and i doesn't want give him a pressure as well.Still,i never BEG  for his love cz i only took his promised  with me  and i excuse myself  from his life😉At least i used to have his full attention on me eg :i he is not stick with his phone or playing games  when we talked😉When everything was done,rest assured..i'll proceed accordingly on grave matter that bring me into a sorry plight and my parents deserved an official apologized from that particular person.Thus,never fucked up with people's life merely for fun cz you never know what damaged you had done to that particular person.I marked every word i made❤️sorry won't bring someone future or pride back in track but forgiveness was the best thing to do.We must responsible for whatever we did.

When i left for work❤️

When I'm home  ❤️

My teachers asked me what a nice perfume i put on when i do my inspection on their schools materials  cz they love the smell❤️❤️BTW I'm using BLACK OPIUM by YSL ladies❤️ I no longer used the same perfume that i used to put on before❤️

LiFe As An AuThOR~

No needs to thanked me on inventing in words creation.As i said i just do my part as an author 🤗.For those YouTubers and Influencers i wished you all the best and i do hope you will inspire more people with your positive vibes contents.As long as they understand about copyright T&C ,I'm good and pleased to share my thoughts with others around the world and i didn't do it for profit,that was not my main objective.My objective was just wanna  all my messages are delivered and to be noted ❤️ Couple years back, i was approached by a local brand in inventing a word and it has to be written in my main mother's tongue.Its seems easy right???but it's wasn't. They didn't tied me with a specific topic,it's meaning to say it's " open free topic" BUT it must be related with everything,wow!! 🤪 So,i came out the word of "SAMPAH" and i did a thick paperwork for it🤗I can say it's worth for my efforts cz I'm still gets my pay monthly till today  just because of one simple word🤣One thing you have to remember..to be an author,you needs a hell brain storming in order to produced a relevant ideas or concept and you must prepared the reasons and  explanation for every words that you created and it has to be reasonate😘

More and less as below :

In our life,you always have a choice to be what you wanna be and not to be what people wanna see.Its compiled with efforts,mutual understanding, solution and resolution.Its same goes in a relationship,all about  decisions and the choice is yours 😊

Kamu pilih untuk menjadi ? :

☑️ Sampah (a genuine LIAR :   org yg akan memberi kemusnahan kpd kehidupan org lain- ada ke org simpan sampah??kotor,busuk,sumber penyakit and bla bla bla..)


☑️ Tong sampah (tempat yg menerima sampah-sebusuk atau sekotor mana pun sampah tu,tong tu akan sedia menerima.Mainly for both genders yg rely 100% on that particular person and someone who is not independent.And i met a lot this kind of people🥴


☑️ Lalat (aka a genuine stalker,toxic people or a psycho : yg akan menghurung sekitar sampah dan tong sampah,senang cerita stalker ni will  secretly following you without permission in every moment and controlling ones's life)


What is your choice??? Care to share with me?Well,you know what i chose for myself in a relationship??It's simple..I'm just be the one who swept away all the rubbish and throw it away in a garbage bin then I'll wash my hand and I'll spray some hand sanitizer for my own safety.I won't complain much if i were seen as a "bad guy" cz i never yearn to be "an angel or the strongest person" on other's view and i just don't need that😊(thus you won't see any post of  teasing and humiliated others in my social media cz i respect myself and those who involved ❤️)I won't complain about the rubbish, garbage bin and the flies  Czas well it's it will still there and i can't change it🤗I'm the person who will always willing to walk away as a high value woman even my journey was tough, suffering,pain and bitter.Some people might labeled me as a "RUBBISH" but i don't mind😉I'm just walk away from the toxic circle.But one thing I'm very  proud of myself I NEVER BEGGING,TAKES CONTROL ON OTHERS  OR CHASSING SOMEONE TO BE IN MY LIFE IN ORDER TO STAY WITH ME,i don't!!!I'm ONLY CHASSING FOR  THE DETAILS OF EXPLANATIONS and NOT BEGGING THE GUY NOT TO LEAVE ME😊Know the difference before you guys wanna judge on others cz you might disclose your side of immature😉
I never put my partner on pedestal cz I'm scared i can't move forward if i lost that specific person.As a result,it's WORKS!🤗


BTW,There's a founder from halal nail polish was keen to take me as her new model for her product.Well,I'm still give that as a consideration due to my packed schedule.Most probably I'll declined for good😊I can't force myself if i know i can't cope.

Maroon looks perfect on my nails❤️

It's easy to  peel off and there won't be any issue for you to perform a solat😘

I'll super excited whenever my dad sent this kind of pic🤪Thanks abah,amik kan "surat" adik😘


❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

PuAsa AsYuRa + PuAsA PuTiH~

These date below is the perfect time for us to fast😘C'mon guys!!!

☑️ 27th Aug

☑️ 28th Aug

☑️ 29th Aug

☑️ 30th Aug

☑️ 31st Aug

☑️ 1st Sept

☑️ 2nd Sept

GeNuiNE TrAnQuiLiTY~

How you guys spent your holiday?Well i  did spent my short holiday wisely😘

☑️ Short trip

☑️ Camping

☑️ Hiking

☑️ Rock climbing

☑️ Coaching yoga and exercise

☑️ Watched the sunrise

☑️ Nature explore

❎ Watched the sunset (been raining)

This place was an oil palm plantation before and there were a lots of murdered cases has been reported including a few bodies were found been dump over here.May all the soul will rest in peace.Theres one night we had the activity of "an owl night".All of us very clearly heard the growling came out of no where,a lady giggling and a piece of long white cloth shifted from tree to tree🤪

Sun rise

Clear sky to takes off your name

Clear wx to write on your name

I'm not in China

In real life,i never likes flowers

Mishap num 1 :My right hand were scalded by hot water from water flask luckily not boiled water😅

Mishap num 2 : Left hand bang the rock.Dang!😁