DaYs PaSsED~

Repost LBKW :"I guessed i no longer needs to shops some grapes in KB Mall or Aeon or in any hyper market in KBR cz i can simply just grab it from our vine yard surrounding our mansion.We waited almost 2 years for it and voila!!!it was perfectly sweet and I guessed the sweetness of this grapes was about 18 brix (sugar contains) and the taste rather similar to Japanese Shine Muscat grapes.Oh,BTW I'm always ate those grapes when i'm in KL..which is I'm hardly find it in my homeland(I'll eat it when I'm really craving for it,cz its cost a freakin' hell bomb guys!)I'm happy to see those bunches of grapes hanging there 😉I love grapes so much,do you like it too??you wanna try some fresh grapes from my vine yard??hehe🤗I plucked more today and kept it refrigerated for my Zulhijjah's breakin' fast and i do hope can make it 10 days as i did last year in a hard way😊This year we paint our mansion's wall in royal yellow since yellow was my favorite color!(but I'm only wear in black attire😋).I guessed this year we won't expect more visitors due to the pandemic,but as you know.. prevention is better than cure cz health is wealth isn't?😊A lots of you asked me wether I'm on leaves or I'm no longer working???my answer is yeah I'm on long leaves upon a personal matter but I'm still able to monitor my school and my educational team from here-basically I'm working from home (everything was just on my finger tips😉)and after this I'm hardly to stay longer in KBR cz I'll get busy till Dec😑But yeah i'll do back and forth to KUL workin' on beauty and fashion, photoshoot,video shoot and met a client for their products.In generally i prefer beauty than fashion🤭 Before this, i have to decline a job from XXXXX brand🤭even they paid higher (12k,more and less) it's quite trading now in social media about this scarfs.You know why???cz the M.U.A (make up artiste)was a lady boy and i did asked wether he can put on a gloves when he wanna touch my face,but he said "I'm just like you but im in a wrong body,PSH🤭) actually i can deducted 2K from my payment and i used my own personal M.U.A,that's can be done but the other thing that i can't tolerate with at all was..the scarf was too short and its doesn't met the terms that i wants.I never prefer any short shawl that shows boobs and i don't like it!Naah for that!So,i declined the job without hesitate.Trust this quotes guys "when the window is shuts,there will always be another window opened specially for you" i don't regret to decline the job (it's not because of i have no issue with my financial state so I'm okay to let it go.Noooo,it's was about my principle(IKR i'm not good,but I'm trying to be better).I won't force others to follow my way but usually I'll choose to excuse myself😊) I decline that job sincerely bcz of Him.And a few days later i got a much way better job as i wants with the same amount and met my requirements😉 Remember,Allah will never let you leave with an empty hands,trust Him and don't lose your hope😊I'd prepared some "small token" for the kids in HUSM(paeds department) even it's not that much but at least it's will bring them a joy🤭 But I'll pass it to a staff to distribute "the gift" since i can't came in cz i had a respiratory problem these few days,i don't wanna spread the germs to the kids nor gets infected😉And..there will a gift for a selected staffs too😉Let's see who is the lucky ones!!" I think i would be more happy if there's no longer people said I'm getting thinner...hmm somehow i missed my chubby looks and i really do,but always gets complaint by my man that I'm putting on weight(previously),but idk why i never get mad of his words🤣but...i do take it seriously when he said something nasty about me that lead my dissapointment towards him.When you are really pissed off or dissapointed dont broke any glasses,update your dissapointment in social media,shouting or yelling..BIG NO!!just keep mum and walk away.Its same goes to if you are feeling hurts or in healing process... never post it on social media,put on hashtag or so on😊.. do it in private...... because theres always a major different between handling matters in professionally and emotionally.You will never know the damage you bring to others untill the same things happened to you......"

To Be Or NoT To Be~

"Indahnya beraya di desa...tua dan muda sama meraikan...." Itu antara bait2 lirik lagu raya yg kerap berkumandang bila tiba musim perayaan😉Are you excited?All of us are already been here for a past few days ago and i'll stay here till 5th August,while they will go back earlier as they needs to work😉.(sapo2 hok dae ado di klate tu,marilah jaley diumoh niii🤗-kalu dae rayo laaa😜) So far there's no congested found since we are not heading to town too often.We done our spring cleaning in our mansion,yeay!since we have a new local helper (i didn't call her maid,cz she was treated as part of our family as well)i felt so delighted cz was given a chance to met all the HUSM staff who helped and guide me a lots and i'm truly glad cz all the process went through smoothly and fast.Thus,i managed to fax the copy of my PSY report to Uncle T for further reference and action (based on what he said which is i can't figure it out actually and seems up to something.Help me as in???)Ikut mung laaaa,baso ambo nok caro.Do you think we are gonna to have our MCO as we had before for a 2nd time??? Well,i know...you don't😉be careful and take care guys!!!

JoUrNeY~

Repost BV : "The journey to EM last week seems exhausted AF to me but i still wanna thanks to MH for the smooth landing😊 I did everything alone since i came all the way by transit instead of direct way by myself.I spent about 4 days in my harem imperial apartment.Captured each and every corner of my unit for memory,packed all the goods in neat and tidy and I'm glad cz all the goods were taken (I'm happy cz i no need to brought back home😁).Hopefully it's will benefits for you guys! even they said won't i felt reluctant??cz most of the goods are brand new and pricey as well.My simple rule is : "let go meant to be let go"and i'm sincerely to do so😉 it's not meant to be in my unit since i choosed to terminate my rental contract earlier which i already made a whole year rental payment in advanced😉.I don't have much time to spare, met everyone since i'm quite busy that day.Big thanks to my landlord Mr Andy (PM me for his number if you wished to rent his units,check the pictures in my social media!), thanks to my ex colleagues and students for your patience(even just for a few months,I'm sorry for any inconveniences occurs),my other fellow friends especially to Nasu (he used to be my neighbour but we are from different floor and now he shift to Kasuma😁 )I'm really sorry cz i'm always turned him down whenever he asked me out for a breakfast till supper,going for gym or shopping.I'm always said "I'm not at home"even I'm just hibernate at home🤭it's quite funny when he said🤣"nama je jiran..nama je kawan...😑tapi susahnya lah nak jumpa dgn you..sampai i dah pindah rumah pun tak pernah dpt jumpa you,dapat WhatsApp jee..tu pun i yang mintak number you dulu,start conversation hmm🙄"and i told him "i bukan sombong but pattern i mmg mcm tu😁" he said he wanna bought me a clothes as my birthday gift since last year🤭 hopefully he didn't bought it yet,or else I'll feel more guilty then🤣. BTW i wish you all the best Capt Nasurudeen NMF😊!! TBH i'm not the type who loves to shops,food hunting and bla bla bla cz i prefer to stay at home and i didn't simply went out with a guys or met them regardless who you are😉 I'm half Kelantanese but I'm not like a typical Kelantanese bitch who will aimed for those high post guy or at least a government servant that they can show off to others🤭 Thats was the fact and the truth fact always butt hurts 😁I have to be in KBR earlier than my schedule cz Uncle T wants me to have a full of PSY reports cz as for now he only had my TCA appointment.When i said "Why?"he just texted me a smiley face and said "let me take a look on it and see how much i can help you😉" For a work wise??huh???Whaataaa??😁"

MiSSiOn~

I think this year gonna be my 2nd time celebrating Aidil Adha in KBR.Last time was when I'm still in a primary school.There was a huge major different Aidil Adha celebrations in KBR and other places especially in southern peninsular.More merrier indeed to celebrate it in KBR with a gather of a big family around.I'll have a long stay in KBR cz I'll depart to KBR in few days time and will stay there till early of August since we have to tidy up our family mansion in our dad's village.Our beautiful mansion literally was a family house that belongs to my dad and his siblings cz each of them fork out tones of grands🤭 to build it.This huge double and half story mansion has 10 bedrooms,a large basement and a few parts of corners and partions,as i told you its very spacious indeed.We seldom stay there cz mostly we will stayed in our own bungalow,more privacy though😁 Currently my aunts and cousins moves in with their family in that mansion.Besides that i wanna meet all the doctors and nurses who help me a lots in my PSY treatment even they said i did it myself.I fight it with all my might.Yes i fight it alone with my blood,sweat and tears.Im dying and breaking inside.Even my family,bestfriends and lawyers were around me plus I'm still did my part as a Muslim yet it's doesn't help me much to ease the pain.Sometimes i choosed to flight cz the hurts was too unbearable,but i fight it all over again after i came to my sense even the pinched was still there and killing me.But still,i can't thanked them enough!Guys, depression was not something you can tolerate with and I'm not joking,seek a treatment before it was too late.As i did,since i lost everything,i choosed to left everything..i knew i need a professional help,and i seek a treatment which is at first place i was thought my depression were caused by my family as I'm always mentioned to him how i felt but surprisingly its was not.Its because of the trauma left in me,the peak moment where i lost my companion, hope, trust and my faith based on how I'm been treated by the one who i held my hope,faith and i trust on.God already arranged everything perfectly for me and i accept it.Thanks on the defective view and pessimistic hope thrown to me,i accept it too,thanks cz i knew i own the whole true story as i never manipulate or twist the story to the other way round.I asked God to hold me tight,He granted my wishes️ and I'm proud that I'm still a human with a soul who literally concentrate on my recuperating, gaining my weight (cz i drop my weight every month)and focus on my jobs (get it clear : jobs-that makes money not rely on one job☺️) thus I don't have much time to spare on stalking or mind on other's bussiness.You get it ?Uncle T still persuade me to join his company and I'm still stick with my answer,which is NOT FOR THE CURRENT MOMENT cz someone's butt gonna hurts and i don't wanna be the eyesore,but no worries,i still know how to be professional and relevant in case we bump into each other☺️He laughed AF😁