HoMeSiCk~

"I'm homesick.......and i really do.Your arms are my most comfort and secured home,my only home of hope and trust that's why I'm really homesick.I'm just wanna be home again and always be home.You are my home and i really missed you even i don't have any right to missed you this much.Love is not about saying I LOVE YOU,but to prove it it's true and i choosed permissively to love you in silent all over again..." P/S:I never had intention to be a Youtuber and I'LL NEVER even i had 3M++ readers or whatsoever!I prefer to be HIDDEN and not meant TO BE IN A FRAME for PUBLIC VIEW!I don't demand for any extra handsome pay as i had more than enough now.Stop asking for collaboration cz i won't give a second thought either.Thank you!For those who wanna be part of my educational team (international training, early childhood education,special needs education background are most welcomed),please throw your CV and I'll set the date and time for online interview.

DeCLiNeD fOr A 2Nd TiMe~

Repost GACT : Again and again Uncle T persuade me to join his company as he said whatever post i want to be,he will definitely approved it without hesitate.I asked him why he really concerned about me and he said during MCO/CMCO he read a lots of Islamic books and he seems get a rythm to understand it and he felt "something" about it and really touched his fatherhood and he asked me wether i can be his god daughter,means I'm gonna have 2 dads??🤭But once again i have to turned him down,it's enough for me to have this distance.I told him " I'm appreciated his efforts to make me feels better again,but i can't deceived myself cz it won't change anything.Once broken,it will never be the same as before.I just want to achieved anything i wants by my own efforts.☺️He asked me why I'm not married??Hmm what a question!!😅I'm just wondering why he needs to rake up the past.I told him "i don't wanna remember anything that hurts me".Uncle T said "He should be ashamed to born as a boy without balls!!" 😉I told him again,every each of us had a different story to begins and ends😉 So,Uncle T started his story " you know girl?in my previous marriage i admit that I'm not a good husband either.I love to flirt with a pretty girls and caught by wife umpteen times till one day i really fell in love with one of them cz she is very different from others.My wife found out about it again and we had a fierce fight.But at that moment im really scared about losing my kids and my gf excused herself from my life.My wife accept me as before but i noticed she is different.She started to used up my cash,my saving,asking for this,take over control on me,teasing me,mocking my gf and many more as she said that was a punishment for me being unfaithful to her.For me as a man,i felt insulted.At first i can tolerate about it in order to pacify her but later on I'm exploded and i call a quit in our marriage.I have my own pride as a man.I looked for my gf cz I'm scared that karma awaits for me cz i knew that i hurts her,as for my ex wife yeah i cheated on her and i admit that.But unfortunately she doesn't want to be in my life again and she's really gone,out of my life.I felt karma was after me,my business doesn't goes smoothly,ran out of capital,met a bitches only after my cash flow and so on.Till i get a message from her and she said stop looking for her.Shes happy with her life without me and she said she forgave me on account of our past relationship.I'm so thankful at the same time I'm sad cz she's not with me anymore."When i read the text that Uncle T sent it to me,i can feel the pinch too.I told him marriage is about sharing 2 lives not controlling ones's life and he agreed with me 😉He asked me why i don't approved his request following me?? haha well i keep my followers and limited anyways😉And once again i remind him don't ever mentioned or tell anything about me as i don't want to attract any attention and i don't need it.Last word i told him before we ends our conversation I'm looking for love not a heal,I'm woman of my words and I'm loyal to my principals.If i can wait for him several years in previously,the coming years and counting wouldn't be any different to me as we used to be apart.Thus,I'm still looking forward to be in OD😉

BrEaDWiNnEr~

Repost GAC: Get a call and text from Uncle T yesterday.We had a casual chat, he asked about my health,career,plan and so on.Out of blue,Uncle T offered me a job in his company that related with media or customer which is im professionally declined in a proper way,thanks Uncle T for being thoughtful towards me,I had another plan to be based in KUL,don't worry about me☺️I still remember he did said "i never met a girl like you,you are so much different from others and FYI only you..dare to addressed me as Uncle T instead of Mr T or TST".I said ofcourse I'm different from them cz I'm not intelligent but I'm professional enough to deal with situation.I'm not independent but I'm strong and always find a solution in a better way."That's why we need someone like you in my company,girl!haha!"he persuades☺️and i said "Thanks but no,I'm really appreciated that's so much Uncle T." He said you know what is your weakness???It's your empathy girl!!You think about others and you put yourself in their shoes!You should not let them off,they treats you badly.I don't mind to lose a staff like this attitude,I'm FAIR cz I'm a FATHER too.I knew this matter cz your lawyer was my good friend's daughter.But since you asked me to secured his job,i respect your decision.But there was a word from him really made me speechless and kinda taken a back.He said "i can feel ur pain and sorrow cz I'm a father too,I'll be mad if my daughter were treated like you,it's about slander girl!!It's offensive!!" With a pinched in my heart i said to Uncle T " I'm not mad but I'm literally dissapointed.I was raised by my parents to be a human with a soul..thus,i will never disturb his source of income since he was the solely breadwinner" Before we ends the conversation he did asked me how he can gave "duit raya" to me🤭And i said it's okay just give it to those who really need it plus i will "paiseh" to received "duit raya" cz i'm working and i know very well how to make money 😁