新年快乐!!!!~

Repost FTBH : "You never loved her : But you just doesn't want to be alone and she exists.....You never loved her : But she was too good for your ego and she exists.....You never loved her : But she made you feel better in your life and she exists.....You never loved her : But she made you days and she's always in your mind and she exists.....You never loved her : But she sacrifice a lots for you and she exists....... You never loved her : But you found she's a loyal to you and able to fullfil your wished,again.....she exists.....You never loved her : But you made her feels she belongs to you and she remained exists.....You never loved her : But she's loved you too much and she still exists....You never loved her : But she's still there for you even she knows she's been used and she still exists....You never loved her : But she still forgives you no matter how you hurts her umpteen times...till the day she excused herself from your life....but why must she exists in your life at first place if you really never loved her???"It's such a melancholic poetic poem i ever had so far cz it's really hits me..and i knew how she feels.At some point i had a lot of things triggered me out of sudden that made me feels wanna give up my psy TCA.But i wanna get better again and i don't want to burdern anyone!!!At times i felt no one gives me a chance to "live" and rebuild myself.And my episodes of sleepless,eating disorder,feeling useless, overwhelmed feelings and extremely exhausted occurs.But it's not that often just once in a blue moon.I'm no longer on medication,just having a psycodemic session once a month😊I'm trying to gain my weight again cz my weight keeps on dropping tho or should i hang up my yoga instructor licence?and give up my Muay Thai in order to gain my weight???but it's fun tho🤭.I learnt it not because of a self defense,just merely accompany one of my colleague...(she wanna try to lose her weight to be exact😁)as I'm 3rd grade (black belt holder) in Taekwondo,it's enough for me.So once again to parents as i mentioned in my committee board,before you send your child to a preschool,knows your child potential first,are they ready for school????Well I'm not agreed to those parents who enroll their kids to those expensive school (oops my school fees quite a bomb too🤭) in order to looks "rich and being somebody😎" in public view but the child can't perform well as they expect,it's not fair to the child tho.Its not about money talk,i'm just concerned in their childhood education development.As i consult the parents when they visit my school I'll emphasize "if you wanna find an academic environment,this is not a right place☺️" Convincing people and sweet talker are two different things,knows the difference 🕵️Till then Gong Xi Fa Cai!!新年快乐，万事如意!!!I'll off to KBR later,see ya!!