WisDoM (2)~

Oopsie,I'm almost forgotten we already had a winner as i mentioned first come first served 😁She's Malaysian and i'm truly admire for her effort,well as i said..i don't have any rules on my contest 🤗 She just search my Facebook😆which is literally we are "friends in Facebook" (which is I'm not that really active cz was 100% supervised by my moderator,which is my co-owner of account🤭)In whatever things we do, efforts counts and I'm very particular about efforts.I'll be more appreciated and respect to those showing and makes efforts rather than just doing nothin' as a log or just came by chance.If you feel disturbed,you have to mantain the professional and personal life.Because,if you don't do this,you'll regret in future why you didn't work for it.You can sing that song very good from which you're connected through an incident.Sometimes it's unwise to be silent as it can aroused suspicion.Serving your ego will only takes you further away from the things you wants in your life.A woman should rule by her father and her man while only a mother should rules a man.If a man let other woman rules him besides his mother,you should seek for transgender.Never explained yourself to everyone cz the one likes you would not need it and the one dislikes you would not believe it.Just give it a damn!Two things define us is our patience when we lost everything and our attitude when we had everything.Do not play with heart and pride cz the guilt will haunt your entire life and you will never know the damaged you did towards the person.Ciao,I wanna visit my newborn nephew,my brother's first child.A baby boy and named Muhammad Uwais Rizqy.Last few months my twin gave birth a baby boy too,named Muhammad Ariq Sulaiman which is his ending names supposed to be....hmm it's okay and after Chinese New Year my youngest brother will get a baby girl🤗Family members are getting more but I'm alone...and IS always there...in my heart ❤️

WisDoM (1)~

"You don't feel hurts cz you can't be with the one you loved but you are just literally bleed for the hurts they left"-FTFB The biggest lies that has been made was "i know your character,you are much more way better than me.I'll envy for those who will have you in future,you are a such a material.I don't wished to play a fool with you,i promised!and i don't want you to feel been fooled.But just think,don't you feel my love towards you?Don't you feel I'm really in love with you? And that's was where the story begun.....Yet you don't felt any guilty for the damaged has been done as you did it for fun,Oh God!- Satanic Angel reposted. Welcomed the new year with the new beggining. Say no more to "2020 please be nice to me and treat me well"Stop it moron!!!!!It's not the year will treat you better it's people surrounding you and how you bring yourself in society!!Got it?? You don't do evil to those who do evil to you,but you deal with them with kindness and forgiveness, that was the genuine tolerance.I pray you will heal from the things that no one ever apologized for.Send the love to everyone who's trying their best to heal from things they never discuss.Being negative will only make your journey more sucks,you may be given a cactus but do you need to sit on it?Think wisely guys!

WisHeS AnD CoNTeSt~

Well before the year ends in less than 48hrs i would like to wish a happy belated birthday to someone who owned a sexy mummy's face.Its same date as my sister-in-law (happy belated birthday chubby momma!) which is falls on Dec too cz usually i'll drop her and their little one birthday wishes plus anniversary to her beloved ones as on my behalf of wishing😉Actually i did post in my blog on 22nd Dec but idk why it's not published and on pending.So,it's not my fault ya.Well hereby,I would like to give away USS's tickets for 2 pax worth $75 each if you can guess it right.This contest only available till tomorrow (it's quite hard tho unless you are really my die hard followers🤗) cz usually once i post a blog,I'll received a massive traffic emails🤣Well,my question is "WHAT IS MY REAL NAME AND MY DATE OF BIRTH" Are you ready?Your time starts now and first come first basis ya.Good luck guys!!!

LoOsER vS ProFesSioNaLisM~

"The best way to earn a respect is by treating others with respect"It's sounds simple but it's hard to apply for those who had a beast character inside them but insisted praising themselves as holy as angel,it's completely a holy shit crap,tell you what..you are just make yourself looks a genuine looser.And honestly it's really pathetic to them to be true...So...please stop it immediately😁 They tried very hard to looks best and portrayed their happiness for the sake of to looks excellent in front others😉 but....deep inside they are down with full of grudges and hatred.What is their purpose??Can you tell me?????☺️Bingo!!!! exactly....to hurts others🤣But do the other party effected????Sadly,it's not all TBH🤭So please stop trying so hard,cz it won't works at all😉 You are just literally hurting yourself and maybe you feel relieved in that way,enjoying torturing yourself.You have a brain to think wisely in order to learn how to respect others in order to gain a well respect from them in returned unless your brain is full of shit and evil idea on how to humilite others or you are too busy being a nosey poker🤭So,are you fit to deserved a respect if you never show respect to others?Think about it guys😉In my next blog, maybe I'm gonna give away the tips of handling a lawsuit or if I'm not that free I'll KIT with you via email😉Thanks to those who asked about that,I'm just wondering what case does matter you a lots?Plus,we won't simply fork out our money to let law deal with it isn't?Yes, mostly we are just do our part to fight our right as a human.And yeah FYI i have several experienced regarding to that matter and one of it,i pull the case to a later time,if they think they can win the lawsuit,they no need to be fucking shaky isn't??well,same goes to me,I'm not shaky at all cz i never make used of others but I'd been used and make fun instead😉and yes i never drop any charges that been made.Most of you never know the details as I'm not the one who loves to draw attention from others in social media even give hint to others nor make fun of others 😉 and i never talk about that in public too.Thats how professional acts😉Only looser will barks and went berserk🤭Happy new year guys!!No matter wether you are stick with your previous or a new resolutions,I wish you all the best!❤️

NaH fOr ReBoUnD~

Whazzup ladies😉well I'm attracted to one of the email i get from Dallas,how are doin' there?And i hope you're gonna read this as well❤️.Cz as you mentioned its might benefits to others too,ikr and pricesely yes it's is😉RN we're goin' to talk about REBOUND in terms of relationship.As you know,rebound means you are bounce back to the air after hitting some hard times.Well hereby,I'm focusing on rebounds despite of your unsuccessful and bitter relationshit... oopsie JK🤭.. relationship😁Well, don't give a fuck of that lads🤭!! Personally,do you really need a rebound to someone new right after your breakup??Why you need that at first place? Well i never had a rebound relationship either🤭From my opinion,you don't have to..cz it's just not fair to both of you.You won't be happy in that way either.You meant to do sort of self healing and you believed they said the grass is much more greener on the other side huh?TBH lads...its just a great fuckin' lie !!!You just needs to recuperate well on your OWN WITHOUT someone new.Cz to the till very end,you won't be as sincere to the other party as you felt for previous relationship.That moron can be a toxic or narcissist BUT as i mentioned it's won't be the same!!Don't hurts others by doing rebound relationship with someone new.Just don't!!!!You may start your love journey again with someone new whenever you are ready to start all over again.Well BTW it's up to you,it's just two cents from me anyways.Some rebound relationship ends with marriage but the guy are still fuckin' around tho 🤣Take your time,think wisely,don't gets hurts and don't hurts others.Heed my advise lads😉 BTW yes I'm doin proofread job as well which is impromptu and yeah it's was one of my source income too 🤣Well it's give me a headache sometimes when comes to reconstruct your grammar, spelling and everything...hmmmm...🙄 Feel free to approach me regarding to proofread😊. "Drop" your thesis and let me give a check☑️and it would be first come first serve basis 😊And i charge by words,not by pages..JK😛Last but not least the most effective way you can give a "soft reminder" to your "beastfriends" out there will go this way😚:Don't peep on me bitch!!!!! your fuckin' butt won't hurts then😉 cao😚

Is Ma MaN~

Hola girlfriends,what are you doin' RN??Have you ever tried on yoga??well tell you what now I'm certified yoga instructor 🤭Damn I'm almost break my spine to reach this level.Well no pain no gain yo❤️So i'm getting more busy once I'm started to coach yoga but it's not everyday,no worries😉I'm still looking the best place for my position as instructor in KL as well🤭Here I'm gonna post a cheecky messages and i hope you don't mind sisters 🤣 I missed you my man❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️i really missed you❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ have a pleasant day ahead,eat well,rest well and take care of yourself my first love❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️XOXO❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️Is forever mine❤️❤️❤️❤️ -You don't truly love someone until they've hurt you and you still think of them as the greatest person in the world that you ever had.Love is the most violent act tho😉

TiTiPaN DoA Ke LaNgiT~

"Alhamdulillah aku diberi peluang utk menjejakkan kaki ke tanah suci.Terima kasih Ya Rabb kerana memberikan aku peluang dan sudi menerima aku sebagai tetamuMu.Aku akan beberapa hari lagi disini ditemani kaum keluarga.Sejak awal perjalanan secara jujurnya,aku telah bersedia utk menerima segala "punishment in cash" as told by others.Aku jelas dgn diri aku sendiri sebagai pendosa😨Aku akan terima dgn ikhlas dan redha.Jika ditakdirkan utk aku berkubur disini,aku tak putus2 meminta pada Dia yg izinkan aku utk kembali ke pangkuanNya sbg seorang syuhadah😣Jika dunia menjadi tempat yg lelah dan meletihkan utk aku,jadikanlah Jannah tempat aku beristirehat dgn tenang.Selain pada itu,ada juga doa yg aku titipkan ke langit beberapa hari ini utk kamu2 yg menganiayai aku dan keluarga.Semoga kifarah akan mengajar kamu erti perikemanusiaan dan kamu akan belajar utk menjadi manusia (hamba yg bertuankan Tuhan) bukan diri kamu sendiri atau mengikut telunjuk org lain dan bukan menjadi syaitan bertopengkan manusia yg bacol😉" -pemilik mata bundar

ToKeN oF ApPreCiAtiOnS~

My hectic day yesterday..been working from morning to late hours..but overall my photoshoot at Duta,Dataran and KLCC super superb ,meet and greet my readers aka my new friends at KLCC was so much fun and spent time with the loved ones was rather splendid.Thanks for your time,thanks everyone.Thanks a lots.I'm sorry for those male readers who wanna shake hand aka salam with me...I'm really sorry hehe... TBH I'm not pink of my health but i did tried my best.Thanks you again and see you again!!!!☺️

LaSt DaY oF SuMmEr in EaSt~

Last night you appeared in my dream with an office attire.You looks smart in plain long sleeves,very smart indeed as i can remember😊You smiled at me,kissed my forehead and give me a warm hug (it's merely a dream and you guys don't beat around the bushes😉)Then you walked away slowly with your small steps.I woke up at strucked 3am and i continue with my solat.I asked Him to take care of you for me cz I'm no longer able to do that as i'm literally hurts by your words that merely you accused me.You might be will forget what you said to others,but those on receiving end won't😉. I've nothing to prove it...but i had Him😊I asked Him not to brought you in my dream as well cz it will make me missed you.Till then take care of yourself😊 Actually i can't sleep after that.I continues with doing house chores and reading cz I'm nervous regarding to my event this weekend,OMG!!!!!and i burnt my red pyjamas while iron it😑 but it's fine I'm already purchase the same pyjamas online🤣I'm kinda nervous cz i used to "write" instead of meeting them.Hopefully everything will gonna be fun and fine😉

MaRk It~

Why you made me feel I'm belong to you if I'm not yours?why you need to be here if you're meant to leave me?One day you're gonna missed my smile,my boring ass text😁,my silly questions😁,my character tend to be clingy to you👻,my fight,my mood swings,my arguments,my perfume,my voice and my insecurities.But most importantly you're gonna missed the way i cared for you all this while😊I don't regret opening up to you even you don't deserved to know me that close and this much.But if you seems knows me very well,you wont utter a rubbish words to me at first place isn't???😉Well,I don't lose you but you lose me.Loving someone its doesn't mean they have to be by your side all the time,at some point you have to learn to let go your loved ones and respect their decision to leave😉

ToSSeD To AnD FrO~

Hello girlfriends🤗 I'm here again😘Usually I'm often "seen" at midnight isn't???,well I had some advice to you especially those who are in relationship..do make sure it is a relationship instead of relationshit😝.Do you really love your man?My advice is love yourself more instead of him cz at some point it's gonna turned to be a backfire to you and you have to beware of those red flags thus, please stay exclusive😉..heed my advice ladies!!!Take me as for an example,i won't pull of the post that been posted.I won't admit the things i never did.I won't fixed the things that i never fucked up.I'm brave enough to face the world and everyone for whatever i did and i won't hide anything.I'm a woman of my word.I fed my own mouth with my own salary and i don't rely on others as they never provides me even my parents😉I never make fun of others nor used others for my own benefits as that's was not my character.I'm not living with my past but I'm living with my present towards the future happily and I'm not afraid to walk in this world alone😊i lived once,betrayed once,get humiliation once and I'll die once too.KIT ladies,see you guys on December in my first meet & greet in KL😘since I've no longer have to split my time to others.If possible I really needs your favour cz I'm pretty nervous🤗for this time i prefer only ladies and my themes will be in BLACK💃I'm excited to meet you ladies!!!see you soon😘

YoU'Re ThE ReAsOn~

Last weekends lps photoshoot kat KL,aku ada rasa breakdown after i heard a song in that very flight.The song that triggered me was YOU'RE THE REASON...Its made me shed my tears in that flight and i felt like ada sharp blade hiris jantung aku,it's extremely pain and triggered my anxiety as well.The worst part is i couldn't breathe well either😣 When i touched down,i'm still walked away with my tears..TBH,IDK why i felt so numb even a lots of people watching over me.I don't feel embarrassed at all..and soon after that "he" appeared in my dream frequently.I'm just wondering why Allah haven't grant my wishes yet🙄 that i asked him almost everyday not to "brought him" into my dream cz all I'll feel is only pain...😔But "he's" always there......and the wound bleed again again and again......To be truth,rezeki aku dlm modelling semakin mencurah-curah as before,offer here and there.. alhamdulillah.But luckily laaa aku tak dpt assign jadi pengantin kubur....klu offer aku 10k pun aku taknak amik.Sorry laaaaa,and sorry jugak those yg "jela" sgt nak mintak selfie ke video call ke...I'm not interested at all.But kesian laaa yg jadi victim manager aku,she's the one yg kena entertained those callers as they will never ever going to have my own personal number😆Bukan apa,aku ni bukan jenis sweet talker,lembik tekok bak oghe klate oyak or bagi false hope.So i know myself very well and i know my limits☺️Fans will remain as fans,and i won't entertained them more than that and I'm fair to everyone😊

LeTTinG Go...~

I get a few emails talking about the broken relationship and thanks for your questions.To me,whatever the situation it is you still have to respect the decision and let go the dumper.I know it's hurts,but just think..what made you so eager wants them at first place?Same goes to the dumper,what made you so eager wants the dumpee at first place?There's must be a good lesson the dumper left for you isn't?Tipu kalau aku kata aku tak rindu dia☹️,dia ada jugak baiknya..Dia baik kat people surrounding dia,the elders..even not to me and my parents.Pada parents aku dia mmg baik,someone yang boleh ubah aku (even just kenal nama and muka)....but idk, bila teringat dia..rasa mcm ada high volt strucked,jadi trauma, night mare,can't sleep,asyik recall the pain were left.Every time aku teringat dia, I'm jst able to istighfar and aku simpan dia dalam hati aku yg hancur💔 together with Al-Fatihah..even dia hurts aku,dia ajar aku byk benda.Dia ajar aku to be independent,not easy been bullied (even it's turns to dia yg bully aku...suatu kesakitan yg takde ampun sakitnya☹️).Dulu aku tak ngam dgn one of my sister-in-law,but dia ajar aku utk terima dia and bagi dia masa utk dia adapt living together with us.Alhamdulillah,it's works.We can co-operate and get along very well😊Thats why aku rasa aku tak berat hati utk "tinggalkan" parents aku cz i knew I'm leaving them in a good hand.Both of my sister-in-law can look after my parents for me.The other thing yang dia ajar aku is about my expenditure, manage my cash flow wisely,the essential of insurance, don't spend on things that unnecessary,don't simply lend money to others and many more.Mostly everyday dia akan tanya khabar aku..wether i'm doing well,what is my itinerary,my plan,my work,my activities and so on.Dia quite secretive about sharing problem even i did asked but dia always dengar semua problem aku and apa yang aku nak share..cerita and always said "i kan ada ️🤗".Dia selalu jugak jadi my punching bag cz all the matters is solely and mostly bcz of dia.. literally cz of the sense of insecured....Cz aku dah sense yg dia akan aniaya aku and.. ulang2 kali aku tanya dia..and dia denied...and ulang2 kali aku tanya dia do you really love me???he said yes he do loves me.....Sbb tu bila dia dah takde aku rasa kind of big lost😣,rasa kosong,sunyi and at the same time i felt hurts and dissapointed as well cz my parents raised me up very well and protect me from getting hurt but you did hurts me to the core.Aku dah terbiasa tunggu dia pergi and blk dari kerja even seawal pagi mana dia going to work or selewat mana dia back from work,aku tetap tunggu dia to make sure dia safe and sound☹️Aku dah terbiasa ada dia for several years...bila suddenly dia takde......aku rasa my other half were gone too...happy belated birthday dear myself,i really missed the old of me😢I wanna let go this blog eventually cz its means nothing now to me..but this is one of my source of income as well..hmmm..looks alike I've to stick with it even my first love already "gone" anyways but its remain in my heart🤗...and I'd witnessed all the chronology.I let it go but I'm not interested in having relationship cz i don't dare to gets hurts and humiliated again,once bite twice shy.The damages were too severe and it's enough.One thing for sure ibadat and faith aku remain still the same with or without dia....

EnOuGH iS eNoUgH~

We organized a charity fund raising for the needy since I'm still in my MC leave and I've to occupied my time with something else that keeps me busy but still...i have my own distance with social media.I can be proud of myself that I never upload anything that triggered public to dig into my story or teased anyone but...at beggining yeah maybe i did post it unintentionally,that can't be undo haha😊As for the charity event..it's was such a very successful event in one of my favorite city.Thanks to those who took part in it😊i felt extremely tired and turn in before midnight.I wake up in the middle of night and talked to Him,our Creator... asked Him to give me a full strength in order to live well and to be "well" again cz TBH at some point I'm very fragile😐.Soon after that i fall asleep and "he" appeared in my dream.I wake up and felt my heart aches,not a chest tight but literally hurts☹️ When i was wandering around in the airport,I'm kinda feel "his presence",that's maybe becz "he" suddenly came across to my mind.I walked forth slowly till to the main way to the tunnel, observed surrounding me.Hes nowhere seen😁Then i step backward and continue wandering around again and no longer wondering about him.I'm safely landed in my homeland and he appeared again last night in my dream and again...my heart aches ☹️ When i talked to Him last night,i plead to Allah don't "brought" him in my dream anymore if that's only leads pain in me.I never hates him even he did owe an apology to my parents..Yessss,he owe an apology to my parents!!!but i don't wished to "see" him in my dream either,it's hurts😢That's why sometimes i choosed not to sleep in order to "avoid" him and his presence in my dreams.Then,this morning my twin texted me and said "hey,i seems saw him yesterday, that's him?He's wandering around with a little boy" Then i said "i have no idea..and to be exact he is my ex now and no longer relates with me😏 shes just keep her her mouth mum and shut,no further conversation haha😆.Means "his presence" was true and i just hits the nail🔨 if that's was really him cz i only had one and only ex in my life time🏹🔨

SiMpLe RuLeS~

Well I'm just thinking of to have a break in my "writing"as i need an ample rest but since there's a lots of simmilar questions about love through my mail😩.I haven't married but I'll try my best to share some thoughts and logically thinking😊So,I'm decided to give it an update here😊Ladies,I'm exactly like you before...i lived...loved.. dumped and hurts by someone i loved and it's not easy for you to hate someone you loved for long..but it's okay,its shows HE loves you by giving you such a huge obstacles for you to move on forward in your life and you learnt about being patient.Take it as your life lesson even it's hurts,no matter what religion and belief you are,you have to remember karma and kifarah is real😊 You can't force people to stay by your side,save your pride with those cheap tactics.I know you missed him,but keep him in your heart babe😐 Thus,find a man with brain and ball rather than a man without both or just solely one of it or just a dick😉One more thing be and independent and career women that won't hunger for a dick and money.Fork out money by your own,make your own living and don't be a sickening dick hunter that made your totally reliance on man is severe instead of being independent.🤪C'mon ladies,be independent.You don't have to show or let other know your sorrow ,but show it and talk to Him,HE will show you the way.Trust me,you are gonna be alright honey.Be patient,be professional and be somebody with beauty,brain and behavior instead of brainless cz the way you present yourself was a self reflection of your genuine attitude 😊.You don't have to draw attention to others with your neverending story cz it makes you no different from a real looser 😊I saw one quote,it's hurtful tho..says.."Only the real loser will bark day and night like a mad dog to draw attention,it's pathetic tho" OMG,i was like kinda...hmm there should be a proper and better word than that to describe instead of dog??🤪Human is still a human😊I said my piece,the choice is still on your conscience after all.Feel free to approach me if you needs someone to share your thoughts,I'm here to listen.Thanks😊

60~

First of all alhamdulillah and thanks for those 2.5 million readers even idk who read my humble blog.I don't expect this at all 😨till I get the notification just now.Its true,rezeki akan dtg mencurah-curah disebalik the hurts,pain and sorrow that we gone through and I'm sorry too cz sometimes it's not fully in English. I'm just wanna say million thanks to you you and you😊.If I had a chance i would like to throw kind of meet and greet event as suggested by the blogger committee but it's such a waste to me.I rather prefer to be remain as unknown blogger unless you already knew me through my Facebook and Instagram.My main presence in social media is not to gain followers or demands on "likes" but it's literally about sharing thoughts.I did removed thousands of followers and "friends" in my Facebook in order to keep my circle in control and private (I just own one Facebook {share with my twin} and Instagram account and I didn't create any extra accounts.I used my own pic and i never hide behind the bushes like a coward ).And same goes to my Instagram, mostly my Facebook's friends are same as my Instagram followers and followee😊as i'm not interested in people who had a negatives vibes that doesn't contribute anything in society but only draw a personal attention and created a chaos.Again, million thanks to all of my readers,how about we donate 3/4 from the payment i get to those who needs help??we have a lot of less fortunate out there.Lets give them a hand as much as we can😉.What I get from Allah,we gave back to Allah together,deal?😊Thanks readers!!eat well,sleep well,have a good rest.Take care😘Lots of love from me - Zarina Kamal P/S:For almost 2 months I'm taking away my life from social media and telecommunication and just solely concentrate on my blog😊 cz i need time to recuperate.Yeah sometimes I did appear(mostly I'm idle😁) in my Facebook and Instagram but merely just for approved, followed or removed friends 😁Last but not least... buddy, when you know by solat,mengaji, meditation, perform umrah,positive thinking and even crying doesn't help you to feel any way better,you need to seek a help from professional!ITS A MUST!And i did it!I'm diagnosed with servere depression and i walked away with a long MC😌My heart truly broken when abah perform solat hajat specially for me for few days and recite Yassin for me😭Tq bah..adik appreciated it so much,if only you know how hurts I am...😢Abah doakan adik get well soon alright?..and mama have to learn how to let me go as i did it ma.....it's more than enough,as if you know.....its okay,Allah knows.😊Sooner or later you will know how bad I'd been brutally ill treated.Thanks for the pain they left that has made us much more stronger cz I believe in Allah's promised to me😊and you too,have faith on Him ya ♥️!!

DoA dARi TaNaH SuCi~

"Jika kau tiada niat memiliki,jgn diusik atau sentuh bunga yang sedang kembang mekar di taman larangan.Kerana jika kau sengaja memetiknya,itu sama sahaja dgn kau telah membunuhnya"The story similar to my friend,a naive and innocent girl named Elsa(bkn nama sebenar) and a guy named Muse (bkn nama sebenar).Elsa really sincerely loves Muse with all her heart.I do pity towards her cz shes really loves him but he just take her for granted and never treat her as human.Elsa told me the moment Muse "took away her throne",Muse swear upon God's name that will never leaves her and will take fully responsibility towards her while wipe away her tears😢and that made her trust him even she did avoid him for a few days cz shes in schocked.Muse"searching for her hi and low" I bet cz he's afraid she might made a police report🤡If you really loves her,why you left her?I remember one of the text he sent to her "You baik and understanding.I can't asked more from you.I taknak main2kan you and taknak you rasa dipermainkan.You tak rasa ke I syg you?I fell for you and i don't want to lose you" Simple and sumpah so called deep sweet kan?If you are not toying her feelings why must you left her?If you feel she's good for you why must you do this to her?Why must you dragged her in your life at first place?Cz you know she's really loves you isn't? I can't understand a men's thinking,I'm just don't understand!! Poligami tu halal,but you don't dare ..yg haram berani pulak?halalkan apa yg haram and haramkan apa yg halal?bcz of you wanna remain rasa selfish tu,kau choosed to ruined others life?Sana perempuan,sini pn perempuan,why you just can't be fair to both of them?Unless kau byk side chic la💆They both loves you equally.Remember,Allah Maha Berkuasa.I done my part in talking as a friend .No worries Elsa,Allah knows what you gone through.Allah always ada utk kau😢Aku doakan utk kau everyday sepanjang aku kat tanah suci,Janji Allah tu pasti,la tahzan ya ukhti,Allah ada!Semoga apa yg aku bisikkan ke bumi akan kedengaran di langit jugak.La Tahzan!Stay strong, everythin gonna be alright okay🙋 Hmmm I'm feeling wanna continue in writing books,but nanti terlebih kaya pulak😝 moderate will do,for the current moment it's more than enough 😊

#doadaritanahsuciutkorgygteraniaya

#youwillpayeverypriceyoumade

#theworldwillbecamesilentforamoment

#Allahtariksatupersatu

#ituygbuatkauistidraj

#wallahi

AdVaNCeD BiRtHdAY WiShES~

Happy birthday in advanced!!🎂 Jadilah you sebaik-baik nama yang mama and abah dah bagi pada you.Live well to the fullest accordingly.Nama you stands a huge meaning behind that.As a truth seeker..do you really apply it in your life??? Don't ever misused it and take granted for it.I am regret and truly sorry that i can't grant your wished as per request which is to be exact it's supposed to be your awesome birthday present this year.I'm sorry,i cant tolerate with those who made a promises upon Allah's name but meant to be broken in the end...munafiq tu namanya!Have a blast birthday!May happiness will always lead your way!

HeLLo StRaNgErS....~

Today is same as previous days...still had the feeling the world still cold,freezing and doesn't move even a bit since then.I felt I'm in the alien city👽.I need to be the in the place that i used to be,now everything is alien to me but ikr,I will be in the place that I'm used to be belong cz Allah is always with me.Well it's same goes to you,if you can treat me completely as a strangers,in fact like I'm someone who irritates you, bring harm to you,someone let you down,put you in the sorry state,debted to you and so on..bla bla bla..well never mind...only immature will react that way😊.We used to be close before and we share the same affection, passion and idea towards one another to move forward back and forth.I do hope you can achieve and succeed in everything you wished for,if you had a chance to do so😊.So,do i need to treat you as my priority and precedence if you can treat me as a strangers?Do i need to listen or care to all your bluffing shit or stuff like that??Naah,I don't think so.Am i right? Right now i have not enough time to think about anything cz I'm pretty busy with my appointments and I jst had a company of my family,ladies,doctor and solicitors.Once I'm done I'll get back to that from the root cz I'm jst recently won a lawsuit against a big name of company(***)and i need some rest,too tiring tau turun naik court ni.Well janji Allah tu BENAR dan PASTI.Allah tak akan biarkan hambaNya yg teraniaya doanya menjadi sia-sia😊.Nothing impossible when Allah said KUN FAYA KUN.At first I'm doubt wether i can win over it cz "they" are established company while me???I'm jst nobody,but aku berserah sepenuhnya pada Allah.Thats why,tiada hijab bagi org2 yg teraniaya,doanya Allah terus angkat ke langit tanpa hijab.Thus,be careful in whatever you did cz Allah always there.In additional you guys must know how to differentiate lah which one is " being teraniaya" and which one is "being duped".Take notes ya👍

PeRaGuT V ~

Aku terpanggil utk berkongsi tentang isu yang sangat taboo which is about virginity.Apa yg kau faham istilah virginity?Yes,it's quite sensitive yet it's still a topic org suka persoalkan.Kau tau bukan mudah utk seorg perempuan yg kena dump tu bangkit semula bila she lose her virginity to someone she loves and trust.Knp some of people dgn mudah lable tht girl is "bitch'slut,murah"and so on??Why don't you show some respect to her?,she's human being too buddy.Be in her shoes..semua org pendosa bukan mulia and perempuan tu tak sepatutnya di hina based on her past.She never asked for it either..salang kn yg alim pun boleh rebah dgn janji manis dan pujuk rayu ini kan pula yg mmg iman nya senipis kulit bawang?Pokok pangkalnya terpulang pada si pergaut dara perempuan tu tersebut samada nak halalkan perempuan yg dia aniaya tu atau tinggalkan dia tanpa rasa bersalah as long as you can save your butt.Kau tau tak betapa hancurnya harapan yg satu-satunya yg dia ada masa tu bila dia ditinggalkan?You ruin her life, her future,her trust,her everything..takde sekelumit pun ke rasa kesian pada perempuan tu??pada parents dia??she's someone daughter too,maybe sblm kau hadir dlm hidup dia..she used to be a filial daughter and Allah's servant.Tp kau sbnrnya yg lure her into this..kau yg rosakkn pemikiran dia..kau sbnrnya yg hancurkan dia.Sblm kenal kau,dia sgt naive..tp kau yg introduced her into this thingy.Yg mana pada kau the reason you slept with her is just for fun???NOOOO it's a huge responsibility behind that for her.Lebih teruk bila kau satu-satunya lelaki yg sentuh dia..ofcourse she will just stick with you all the way.Then why you need to bad mouthing about her?Tolonglah kaum Adam...jgn permainkan perasaan kaum Hawa,jgn melibatkan kehormatan ank dara org..mereka ada maruah utk dijaga,bukan utk dipijak atau dihina dan dibuat suka-suka..halalkan lah dia utk kau kalau kau betul sygkan dia,ada perasaan utk dia and ada rasa tanggungjwb atas dia as rather than kau jadi manusia munafiq dan zalim,menganiaya zahir dan batin anak dara org yg kau hancurkan.Percayalah takkan ada hijab bg doa-doa org yg teraniaya..kerana Allah angkat doanya terus ke langit...she gave everything it's not bcz of she's cheap,but she really loves you and trust you..dia selalu nak kau jd yg halal utk dia.....Pernah tak kau fikkr mcmna dia nk berdepan dgn trauma yg kau bagi?mcmna dia nk berdepan dgn parents dia,how she deal with the hurts you left?berterus terang dgn lelaki lain?Maybe some people said..alah..just move on,you'll get someone better than him..tp kau tau tak..its not easy cz bukan semua org nasibnya baik and bukan semua org nasibnya sama..forgive, forget and move on..thats only we can said.Dia mungkin takde sesiapa utk diluahkan or turn to,but she's 100% rely on Allah SWT,cz she knows..Allah tak pernah tinggalkn dia mcm kau tinggalkn dia..Adil ke utk perempuan tu??Kalau perempuan yg kau "slept for fun" tu jenis yg touch and go,bitch or whatever name it is..maybe you no need to think much cz apparently she never loves you,she just needs some cash and "pleasure"..but come to think..perempuan yg kau ruin tu..opposite from the bitch??tak rasa ke kau aniaya dia?mess with her life and future?and she's waiting for you to halalkan dia one fine day....and still counting till the day you choosed to left her and out of blue you treat her totally as a STRANGER..Idk,can you still call yourself a man?cz to me you are worst than a beast.Allah observe semua guys..Allah watch over you.If one day kau ada ank pmpuan..kau akan gone through sendiri betapa seksanya kau tgk ank kau terseksa and mentally breakdown sbb kau rasa helpless...cz lelaki yg rosakkn anak kau tu choose to be pronounced death all of sudden.....and M.I.A (missing in action🤗and have to be disappeared 😂)Theres always price to pay every single thing you did.Kifarah and karma tu ada.Think it wisely before you wanna do something,sis pesan je😊

DePreSi BuKaN GiLa

While waiting..... A : What are you doing here? B : Appointment A : For? B : Quiet and smile A : You company somebody? B : Quiet and smile.You came for? A : Waiting for my niece B : Okay A : What's ur name? B : XXXXXX Nurse came out and said asked B to wait awhile A : You looks fine😱 B : I need HELP You may think she's fine based on her looks and appearance.But you won't know how she's struggling in order to looks fine......

PriCeLeSs~

Alhamdulillah,aku bersyukur pada Allah kerana telah memudahkan satu persatu urusan aku.Janji Allah itu PASTI,janji Allah itu BENAR.Tidak akan ada hijab bagi doa-doa hambaNya yang teraniaya and doa orang-orang yang teraniaya terus Allah angkat ke langit.Di waktu aku tidak ada sesiapa utk aku vent everything, struggling alone,breaking into a million pieces,depressed,lost in track,at my lower point,low spirit,moral down and so on..di waktu itulah aku bergantung sepenuhnya pada Dia walau sesakit mana aku rasa...cz i knew i can't rely on others😊.The one and only will help me is just Allah S.W.T...I knew i had a family...a parents to turn to,but i choosed to go through it alone at this moment cz I'm strong enough to endure it. "Lihat aku syg,yg sudah berjuang... menunggu mu dtg..menjemputmu pulang..igt slalu syg,hatiku kau genggam..aku takkan pergi, menunggu kamu di sini..."-Menunggu Kamu,Anji was my current fav song.It's just i found the lyrics was just too beautiful😍 P/S : Correction : Ingat selalu sayang nyawa kita Allah pegang😉

A wOrD To ReMemBer~

I saw a melancholy quote in other bloggers's blog,it's stated...." you said you will never leave me,but where are you now? To guys out there,if you can't keep your promised..don't ever dragged her into your life cz once promised has been made it's meant to be kept.Some people are lucky enough to have a bright future to live on,met someone better and so on....while some of them are struggling to live with the pain were left behind.Easier said than done.The one who gone through it understand the pain,while you???won't.Once,there's someone told in public "those guy who has made a women in a sorry state,even he did apologized,he won't feel any better for the rest of his life and he should pray hard he won't have a daughter cz he will understand how hurt it is when his daughter in that plight one day.Kifarah will always there...and Allah will always be with someone who in a sorry state.Be strong ladies!

NoT bY MoNeY aNd ApoLoGiZe~

You can count yourself lucky when you were loved by two strong silly women who did the same things for you.They are protecting you all the way,obey your words,loved,cared and sacrificed everything just for you in order to make you happy and safe as you wants.Yet you still hurts both of them deeply in oder to escape and saved yourself..just yourself....You fuck up the things up but the solutions you had only for yourself.And this things can be undo with apologize and money.Its about promised and pride.And its cost whole life,dont you feel guilty for the rest of your life when you know someone is struggling to live on? won't you feel indebted to someone who giveup everything for your own sake of loosing everything you build all this years even she lost a lots?You know why??cz she still loves you even you treat her as fucking shit.You can be fair,and it will be fair to everyone.But it's seems you are being unfair to someone.

RiNdU~

I missed you a lots TBH,Ya Allah....😭

I'm LiTeraLly HuRtS💔~

In past,I thought there's a something special you saw within me,but I'm just realized I'm literally an object to you for you occupied your leisure time......😢

ChiCkEN!!!!!~

You are up to something?!! You hide yourself from me?!! You are genuine COWARD????? You know what is COWARD???? Its just totally YOU 😏 You know why?? *action louder than speak🤡 *you love to bluff👹 *It's all shits💩 in your brain🤯 Well you just can tell me directly kid🐒 Instead of playing hide and seek like this🐾 It's LOOSER game👎 kid🐣 You play🤹,God pays😁 and I'm okay😉👍 Remember this gentle reminder wisely? HE always watch over you👀

NeVeR Be WiTh Me~

I'm just realized somethin' that sometimes YOU NEVER THERE WHEN I NEED YOU.....I don't need your money or your entire time..I just wanna talk to you,voice out what i felt and I want you to LISTEN but I'm aware my place....who am i.....where I'm standing..........it's okay

ScRaM🤬~

Leave me alone chicken!!!!!!!!!!! That's only i wanna said since there's no solutions for me.Everyone can said,I can choosed to run away from this matter,I can move out,I can say no,I can ignore,I can this,I can that.Theres no point I said thousands words but I'm still alone,all by myself.For what even i have you by my side if you still can't do nothing.You still let me go through ALONE!!!Yes,ALONE....... Can you please tell...even in my dream.."hey,don't worry..I'll take you away...I'm always here for you.."All BUSTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UnFaiR😣~

Everythin' seems getting harder to me,for me nor on me.I left with nothin' except my name and stories.I seems lost interest in everythin' as well.Well lads,ikr its fuckin' sucks when you are all alone by yourself and always begging for someone affection.Do they care?Nooooo...they don't bitch🤬

UnSuNg StoRiEs~

I'm not writing for fun,it's my effort counts since no one listen except Him.Hidden is more preferable cz ikr when no one noticed I won't feel hurts.

KniGht Of ThE DarkSide~

Knight of the darkside.....it has been many years....and you never returned.....just wondering....where have you been??......