YoU'Re ThE ReAsOn~

Last weekends lps photoshoot kat KL,aku ada rasa breakdown after i heard a song in that very flight.The song that triggered me was YOU'RE THE REASON...Its made me shed my tears in that flight and i felt like ada sharp blade hiris jantung aku,it's extremely pain and triggered my anxiety as well.The worst part is i couldn't breathe well either😣 When i touched down,i'm still walked away with my tears..TBH,IDK why i felt so numb even a lots of people watching over me.I don't feel embarrassed at all..and soon after that "he" appeared in my dream frequently.I'm just wondering why Allah haven't grant my wishes yet🙄 that i asked him almost everyday not to "brought him" into my dream cz all I'll feel is only pain...😔But "he's" always there......and the wound bleed again again and again......To be truth,rezeki aku dlm modelling semakin mencurah-curah as before,offer here and there.. alhamdulillah.But luckily laaa aku tak dpt assign jadi pengantin kubur....klu offer aku 10k pun aku taknak amik.Sorry laaaaa,and sorry jugak those yg "jela" sgt nak mintak selfie ke video call ke...I'm not interested at all.But kesian laaa yg jadi victim manager aku,she's the one yg kena entertained those callers as they will never ever going to have my own personal number😆Bukan apa,aku ni bukan jenis sweet talker,lembik tekok bak oghe klate oyak or bagi false hope.So i know myself very well and i know my limits☺️Fans will remain as fans,and i won't entertained them more than that and I'm fair to everyone😊