LeTTinG Go...~

I get a few emails talking about the broken relationship and thanks for your questions.To me,whatever the situation it is you still have to respect the decision and let go the dumper.I know it's hurts,but just think..what made you so eager wants them at first place?Same goes to the dumper,what made you so eager wants the dumpee at first place?There's must be a good lesson the dumper left for you isn't?Tipu kalau aku kata aku tak rindu dia☹️,dia ada jugak baiknya..Dia baik kat people surrounding dia,the elders..even not to me and my parents.Pada parents aku dia mmg baik,someone yang boleh ubah aku (even just kenal nama and muka)....but idk, bila teringat dia..rasa mcm ada high volt strucked,jadi trauma, night mare,can't sleep,asyik recall the pain were left.Every time aku teringat dia, I'm jst able to istighfar and aku simpan dia dalam hati aku yg hancur💔 together with Al-Fatihah..even dia hurts aku,dia ajar aku byk benda.Dia ajar aku to be independent,not easy been bullied (even it's turns to dia yg bully aku...suatu kesakitan yg takde ampun sakitnya☹️).Dulu aku tak ngam dgn one of my sister-in-law,but dia ajar aku utk terima dia and bagi dia masa utk dia adapt living together with us.Alhamdulillah,it's works.We can co-operate and get along very well😊Thats why aku rasa aku tak berat hati utk "tinggalkan" parents aku cz i knew I'm leaving them in a good hand.Both of my sister-in-law can look after my parents for me.The other thing yang dia ajar aku is about my expenditure, manage my cash flow wisely,the essential of insurance, don't spend on things that unnecessary,don't simply lend money to others and many more.Mostly everyday dia akan tanya khabar aku..wether i'm doing well,what is my itinerary,my plan,my work,my activities and so on.Dia quite secretive about sharing problem even i did asked but dia always dengar semua problem aku and apa yang aku nak share..cerita and always said "i kan ada ️🤗".Dia selalu jugak jadi my punching bag cz all the matters is solely and mostly bcz of dia.. literally cz of the sense of insecured....Cz aku dah sense yg dia akan aniaya aku and.. ulang2 kali aku tanya dia..and dia denied...and ulang2 kali aku tanya dia do you really love me???he said yes he do loves me.....Sbb tu bila dia dah takde aku rasa kind of big lost😣,rasa kosong,sunyi and at the same time i felt hurts and dissapointed as well cz my parents raised me up very well and protect me from getting hurt but you did hurts me to the core.Aku dah terbiasa tunggu dia pergi and blk dari kerja even seawal pagi mana dia going to work or selewat mana dia back from work,aku tetap tunggu dia to make sure dia safe and sound☹️Aku dah terbiasa ada dia for several years...bila suddenly dia takde......aku rasa my other half were gone too...happy belated birthday dear myself,i really missed the old of me😢I wanna let go this blog eventually cz its means nothing now to me..but this is one of my source of income as well..hmmm..looks alike I've to stick with it even my first love already "gone" anyways but its remain in my heart🤗...and I'd witnessed all the chronology.I let it go but I'm not interested in having relationship cz i don't dare to gets hurts and humiliated again,once bite twice shy.The damages were too severe and it's enough.One thing for sure ibadat and faith aku remain still the same with or without dia....