EnOuGH iS eNoUgH~

We organized a charity fund raising for the needy since I'm still in my MC leave and I've to occupied my time with something else that keeps me busy but still...i have my own distance with social media.I can be proud of myself that I never upload anything that triggered public to dig into my story or teased anyone but...at beggining yeah maybe i did post it unintentionally,that can't be undo haha😊As for the charity event..it's was such a very successful event in one of my favorite city.Thanks to those who took part in it😊i felt extremely tired and turn in before midnight.I wake up in the middle of night and talked to Him,our Creator... asked Him to give me a full strength in order to live well and to be "well" again cz TBH at some point I'm very fragile😐.Soon after that i fall asleep and "he" appeared in my dream.I wake up and felt my heart aches,not a chest tight but literally hurts☹️ When i was wandering around in the airport,I'm kinda feel "his presence",that's maybe becz "he" suddenly came across to my mind.I walked forth slowly till to the main way to the tunnel, observed surrounding me.Hes nowhere seen😁Then i step backward and continue wandering around again and no longer wondering about him.I'm safely landed in my homeland and he appeared again last night in my dream and again...my heart aches ☹️ When i talked to Him last night,i plead to Allah don't "brought" him in my dream anymore if that's only leads pain in me.I never hates him even he did owe an apology to my parents..Yessss,he owe an apology to my parents!!!but i don't wished to "see" him in my dream either,it's hurts😢That's why sometimes i choosed not to sleep in order to "avoid" him and his presence in my dreams.Then,this morning my twin texted me and said "hey,i seems saw him yesterday, that's him?He's wandering around with a little boy" Then i said "i have no idea..and to be exact he is my ex now and no longer relates with me😏 shes just keep her her mouth mum and shut,no further conversation haha😆.Means "his presence" was true and i just hits the nail🔨 if that's was really him cz i only had one and only ex in my life time🏹🔨