FiRsT aND LaST~

Baby..i want you today,tomorrow,next week,next month,next year and for the rest of my life..only you~

SuJuDkU~

Semoga setiap butiran kata-kata yang ku bisik ke bumi juga bisa kedengaran dilangit tanpa hijab~#sujud ig#aku,kamu,dia,kami,mereka #i am ready to meet my Maker

WaLLaHi LiLLaHi~

I wants you because i needs you not because of i needs you because i wants you.I'm really wanna be yours and i wanna you be mine wallahi lillahi~

AkU iNgiN mEnCinTaiMU~

Tuhan betapa aku malu atas nikmat yg Kau beri sedangkan diriku terlalu sering membuatMu kecewa.Atau mungkinkan aku terlena sementara Engkau beri aku kesempatan berulang kali agar aku kembali.Dlm fitrahku sbg manusia utk menghambakanMu..betapa tak ada apa2nya aku dihadapanMu.Aku ingin mencintaiMu setulusnya sebenar2 aku mau..dlm doa..dlm ucapan..dlm setiap langkahku.Aku ingin mendekatiMu selamanya sehina apapun diriku..ku berharap utk bertemu dgnMu ya Rabbi..~

My GrAvE MiStAkE~

Theres nothin wrong if theres someone do really adore me because its my nature being friendly,likable and caring towards others.But unfortunately this guy mistook my kindness and jovial as somethin he really wished for.At first place he was just okay but towards the end hes turns to be more bold,terrifying and he started to gave me those threatened words and pics.I felt pity to him eventually because apparently he may looks very fine good looking young man with a promising future but he doesnt have a good childhood memory and hes breaking inside.So no doubt its leads him to have that character.Being a blue print teacher i gave him a supportive words to him in order to make him felt secured and let him knows the world still needs him but im not flirt and i never gave him any false hopes.Might be from there he misunderstood me..instead of gets it right...im just left because the inner fear already grew inside me..Its my bad...~

I'm LeAviN' ~

Salam Sahabat-sahabat yang saya sayangi semua..30 November 2016 ini adalah hari terakhir saya berada di Malaysia kerana saya akan ke Jeddah for 5 years.And i'll expand my career over there. Terima kasih atas layanan baik anda semua kepada saya sepanjang kita mengenali antara satu sama lain.I'm pretty sad but in sha Allah..we'll meet again. Maafkan saya jika ada salah silap saya selama ini. Saya pasti akan rindukan anda semua especially you. Apa apa pun we still boleh keep in touch each other.Please leave your email address or your phone number below ya. So please copy dan paste then send it to for those who knows me.Thanks * Entah siapa punya mesej ntah ni. Saya pun cuma copy paste jugak je ;p

HiDDeN LaST SeEn~

I was like..."hmmmm.....okaaaaay..maybe you need a space and privacy for yourself" each time i saw your Whatsapp without your last seen there.Maybe you'll never know that im "watched" over you everyday neither i'm free nor busy..either day or night.And the moment i saw you "online" i felt wanna text you "gotcha,i catched you online ;)" but..i dont dare to do so...till then i dont wanna asked for more..i dont even know wether you'll read this post or not..its okay..just take care of yourself my first love...Its hurts indeed..but i'm still lovin you and thats not gonna be changed~

MuHaSaBaH CiNTa~

Wahai pemilik nyawaku..betapa lemah diriku ini..berat ujian dariMu..ku pasrahkan semua padaMu.Tuhan baru ku sadar..indah nikmat sihat itu..tak pandai aku bersyukur..kini ku harapkan cintaMu.Kata-kata cinta terucap indah mengalir berzikir dikidung doaku..sakit yg kurasa biar jadi penawar dosaku.Butir-butir cinta airmataku teringat semua yg Kau beri utkku..ampuni khilaf dan salah selama ini Ya Ilahi..muhasabah cintaku.Tuhan kuatkan aku..lindungiku dari putus asa..jika ku harus mati..pertemukan aku dgnMu~ #Muhasabah Cinta by Edcoustic #Apa yg paling dekat dgn kita?-MATI

PLeaSE.........~

Please dont make me to have this feelin.....~ #UNWANTED #WRONG TIME #WRONG PERSON

YoUr AbSeNcE :(

I'm pretty sad when i couldnt meet you..i thought i'll be able to meet you even for a short while despite on my tight in schedule and same goes to you cz i missed you so much...i missed you dearly :(.. I had a lots of things wanna share with you...:(.. I'm waitin for you...waitin to meet you...waitin to see your smile..waitin..waitin...and kept on waitin...:( I wanna give you a call..but i dont dare to disturb you..or.....are u trying to avoid me???trying to pushed me away??:( You felt annoyed?? :( I dont want your money...I dont want a present from you...i'm just want your presence...i'm just want to spent my time with you as much as i can :(

BeSt ReMeDy~

Please LET ME HAVE an ample of A GOOD REST.............I AM really TIRED..............When i'm really tired of everythin...i might just leave without words.....as for now...please LET ME REST... ~

I'm BrEaKiN' iNsiDe~

#i'm hurts #i'm always not into the conversation #i'm always the last one to know everythin #its because i'm a girl #i'm wonderin why you must favour boys that much #why i cant be like the other daughter?they have a strong bonding with their mum.While me?????i dont have that :( #i'm always locked myself in the room..isolated myself #i'm always act strong but deep inside..its fall apart #i'm always kept myself busy because just to occupied my time #i'm wonderin do you ever loves and cares for me even for a day? #mama....if one day you and abah have to make a choice who you wants to lives with or spent more your silver time with??will you choosed me and think of me at the first place?? #please dont hurts me again and again #you'll always be my presedence even im not that esential for you #thanks cz brought me to this beautiful world and met those splendid people #i'm sorry if you hurts when you read this cz that was what i felt. #i'm not attention seeker nor jealous #its jst slip of my thought

SuRaT KeCiL uTkMu-MaAfkan by NiKiTa WiLLy-

Telah tiba waktunya untukku menyatakan pdmu sebenarnya apa yg kurasa.Maafkan hati ini yg tak bisa berhenti menyayangimu walau ku tak bisa menjadi milikmu juga sbg yg tercinta dihatimu.Kekasih yg kucinta..kekasih yg ku mahu..ku tahu saat ini kau masih ragu.Maafkan hati ini yg tak bisa berhenti menyayangimu walau ku tak bisa menjadi milikmu juga sbg yg tercinta.Sungguh bukan maksudku utk memaksamu menjd milikku.Yg selama ini sudah menemaniku juga sbg yg tercinta dihatiku.

On My BiRtHdAy-8 OcT-~

To my twin...happy birthday kakak!!!..just remember this : OUR HEARTS WILL ALWAYS BEATS AS ONE AND YOU ARE BELONG TO ME CZ YOU ARE HALF OF MY SOUL..i'll always loves you..be there for you and stood for you as u did so much for me in order to protect me May you'll always be a good wife,mother,daughter,sister and His Servant as well..which is i might be wont have the experience as you did.Thanks to Him cz gv me a chance to lives and to loves..to my family members.. all of you will always be my priority and presedence.Same goes to my beloved ones..i'll always loves you even i knw u nvr loves me as much as i did..but..its okay...just let me have you in my mind and heart :( To all my friends and foes..thanks cz u guys r always be my side...and i did learnt a lots frm u guys....lots of love frm me...<3

I SaiD mY PiEcE~

Somehow i really cant say nothing at all when talkin about love.Love is messy,loving someone is hurts,love is pain,love is pleasure,love is courage,and there is a madness in love.The mad thing was i truly in love with you but you never feel that.When you will feel that?Do you aware my feelings towards you?Do you know i'm hurts right now?Do you know i really needs you?Do you know that?Do you know everything?Do i deserved your love?Do i have place in your heart...even its just a small portion?Have you ever love me even for a day?You never did..but i'm done.....~

WhAt i WiShEd FoR~

"I wished to be with someone who never treat me as a night stop,lay over or transit.But i wanna be with someone who treat me as his destination"~

WiThOuT YoU~

I am without you~ #I'm lonely #I'm lonesome #I'm all alone #I'm loner #I'm dull #I missed you #You're all i long for all i worship and adore #I kept you in my pray

FrOm tHiS TiNy HeArT~

Every woman needs a man that will ruin their lipstick not their mascara~ #I dont need that in particular eventually. #I need a man who can find me a place in his heart. #I need a man who treat me like a woman not like his one of his women. #I need a man who can make me felt secured and comfort not insecured and terrified. #I need a man who can make me felt he is presedence and always missed his presence. #I dont need a man who always needs me when he needs somethin #I dont need a man who make me felt unwanted. #I just have a tiny precious heart..once broken..its not considered yours but its considered gone.

NoThiN' GonNa ChAnGeD mY LoVe FoR yOU~

When i watched you sound sleep..i knew that you are safe~ When i touched your face,eyes and lips..i knew you are perfect~ When i kissed your cheek..i knew you are secured from any harm~ When i hold your hand..i knew i'll never let it go~ Baby,there is nothin you have to worry about as i'll never leaves you and i'll protect you from any harm.I'll always here for you till i've to continue my journey in order to meet my Maker.~

CoUnTiNg ThE DaYs~

亲爱的, 谢谢你！for everything..trust me that 我会永远在这里陪你 no matter how its takes.Its because of 我很爱你.But indeed..im gonna missed everything about you once you are no longer can be "seen" once you are "cruising" and no more cross check from you..what i'll said 我很想你.Till then 加油噢!!

MaTtEr Of TiMe~

I wished i could split into two..i wanna be here and there at the same time.I really wants to be with you and spend my precious timeless moment with you and at the other hand,i have to fullfill my responsibility as well.Gosh!!im really stucked right now/::'(I cant even to think straight right now!!which one i should give up?im really caught in a middle at this moment...which one will be my priority?which one will be my presedence?I hope i can make a wise choice that i wont regret at the end.

HoW LoNg iT WiLL bE LasT?~

After givin a deep thought..i'm thinking of leaving you in peace at the first place..leaving you in a good hands..walk away from your life for your own good..discard you from my life..try to forget everything about you..but i'm just realized that i wont be in peace and it will hurts me to the core if i do so and i cant do that because i love u too much 哇！我爱你 and i cant bear apart from you.I know i cant do much to make you stay by my side..but trust me..i really wants you to be mine.Nothing can changed my love for you even i have to endure all the obstacles,thorns and mines sooner or later unless He said.."enough..dont be sad..take a rest..you'd done your best"~

"SoFt ReMinDeR"~

Attention to all photogs : #I'm not a nude model and i wont shoot anythin regardin to that as im not keen in it as well. #Its a merely just a strong reminder. #Its jst a 2 cents from me.Bear it in your mind. #Jgn sangka cuaca yg tenang takde air turbulence. #iamzarinakamal

I cHoOSeD tO bE ThAt WaY~

If i'm missin someone? -I never call -I'll express in my blog&g+ If i wanna meet? -I never invite If i wanna be understood? -I never explained -Unless been asked If i have questions? -I'm hardly asked If i dont like it? -I'll never say it If i like it? -I'll never state it If i love someone? -I'll never say it -And i lost you at the end If i want something? -I'll asked from Him #Nobody knows what's in my mind #I knew its better to express rather than to expect #But i cant

CaStiNg CaLL~

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你会一直在我心里~

你会一直在我心里~ #u will be always in my heart #translations #even i know you'll walk away from my life #sooner or later #i'll always here #i dont wanna be someone before or beside you #i wanna be someone who always behind you #followin your step..always support you when you wanna fall #always encouraged and cheer you when you feel helpless and hopeless #always be your pillar of your strength when you are at your lowest state #always behind you to push you move forward when you feel wanna back out #and will always be there whenever you needs my presence even im not that really important

CoLor Of My HeArT~

Color of my heart~ #as red as my love for you #do you know that? #its never fade away since beggining #i love you so much #i missed you so much #you are really special #even i knew maybe i dont have a special place in your heart #you are truly my First Love #i wont asked you to be with me #but i wanna be with you #can i take care of you for the rest of my life?

A sMaLL ToKeN FrOM Me~

How i delivered my grateful to ALLAH SWT?~ #spent my 1/3 night talkin'to Him~ #HE gave me more than enough~ #HE'll listen everythin~ #i asked everythin from Him~ #i never loves him more than Him~

KoKoRo~

You will always be in my way~

YoUr EnCoUnTeR~

I'm wondering and can't imagine that someone like you really rocks my world. I don't even know why i love you this much even i know you'll never be mine. You will be always in my heart even i know its hurts. #Maafkan by Nikita Willy is just the right song for you. Thats only the way i conveyed my longing to you😟